How is work?
Come on Diane…how is work?
I am not working. Remember we were being retrenched?
Of course I remember
So the day came and we left so I am not working.
Wow…it’s already three months since we last spoke?
More like five.
How were your final days at work?
Do you really want to go there?
Of course…would I ask if I didn’t want to know?
You never cease to amaze me. I said that God was in control and He wanted me to be His vessel there but all I ever faced was resistance. You just wanted to gloat right?
Gloat? About what? How can I gloat about something I didn’t even start in the first place?
Didn’t you petition God to give me trouble?
Why would I do that?
I don’t know…maybe you are like everyone else who just calls to remind me how I have fallen from favour.
I would never do that and you know it.
In your heart of hearts you do but the pain of things right now is too much. I am sorry that I bothered you…have a nice day.
Silence…the gall of that girl…she actually hang up on me. What is wrong with her that she hang up on me? I really needed to talk to her and she just left me high and dry. She is just like everyone else who wants to gloat and remind me how I have fallen. What did I do to deserve this? Why did it have to be me? How come less qualified and productive people were retained? Don’t I have a father who says he will never fail me? Well right now I feel like my father has failed me and I don’t know how to deal with that.
Child, who would you rather was in this position? Why shouldn’t it be you going through this? Who told you that walking with me would mean that I spare you all the hardships? Do I stop hard times totally? Absolutely not!
If I know that a certain road will produce what I need for you to become the right kind of ambassador for me I will allow it to happen. Like Job, I will allow you to lose some things so that we clarify what is of greater importance for you. However like Job you have a choice to turn away from me or remain true to what you know about me. I am certain that I have your best interests at heart but I don’t do it like you would expect me to do it. I will do it my way and hope that you align and learn the needed lessons at the appointed time.
Suffice it to say that I have allowed you to go through this space for a reason that will be revealed in my time. You have a choice to make today to fully trust me or to do things your way. I will send people and give you thoughts that won’t always be the full picture but if you share what I lead you to share and act on the thoughts I need you to act on it will be well with you and your family. If you insist on doing it the way your family wants you to do it, things won’t go far and you will find that it would have been better to know you are in my will than in my wrath. At the end of the day, the choice is yours and you will reap the benefits of your choices.
My child, I would love it if you choose my way because though it seems harder in the interim it has greater fruit in the end. The process I am taking you through is for your good after my glory is established. I need you to trust that my plans for you are for good and not for evil to give you a future and a hope just as I used Hosea’s life to bring my word to his people even as he was married to a prostitute. His life was abominable in the scheme of things for that day but I used it to tell the children of Israel the story of their behaviour and how they related to me.
Allow me to use your life to change the way people see life and salvation and walking with me. Allow me to use you are my showpiece that I may glorify myself. In the end, the choice is yours and yours alone. Trust me and let me lead you.
Do you fully trust your Lord and Father to lead you and guide you in all truth to the very best of His plans for you?