Even if I never know

Mary did you know that your baby boy will one day walk on water?

Mary did you know that your baby boy will save our sons and daughters?

Did you know that your baby boy has come to make you new?

This child that you’ve delivered will soon deliver you.


Mary did you know that your baby boy will give sight to a blind man?

Mary did you know that your baby boy will calm a storm with his hand?

Did you know that your baby boy has walked where angels trod?

And when you kiss your little baby, you have kissed the face of God.


The blind will see, the deaf will hear and the dead will live again.

The lame will leap, the dumb will speak, the praises of the lamb.


Mary did you know that your baby boy is Lord of all creation?

Mary did you know that your baby boy will one day rule the nations?

Did you know that your baby boy is Heaven’s perfect Lamb?

This sleeping child you’re holding is the great I am. (Mark Lowry)

Just yesterday I was setting down a work site and the above song came to mind and I have thought and sung this song a lot since and thoughts have been forming in my Head.

Mary was approached by an angel and called the most blessed among women and told that she would be the one to bear the Messiah….the saviour of the world…the appointed servant of God who would free the people and cause them to turn back to Him. She was pure, engaged, and honourable. My mind tells me that she was simple and true to life and the kind of child any parent would love to have yet she was called out, set apart, singled out and spoken to by the angel of the Lord. Correct me if I am wrong but in those days the voice of God was uncommon to the common man yet Here was a simple young lady seeing the messenger of God…..AWESOME!!!!!

I am looking at Luke 1:26-42 and there are things that have astounded me;

  • God sent angel Gabriel (v26)…not another angel whose name we do not know but the archangel according to many interpretations to speak to a young lady. The only other record I can find of a personal visit by Gabriel is Daniel (Dan 9:20-27 and He had been praying for it….
  • Mary was a virgin and pledged in marriage (v27)…..untouched but going on with life. She had not stopped to wonder what was going on but was living a life that He could look at be glad He created Her.
  • The angel said, “…you are highly favoured and the Lord is with you….you have found favour with God…” (v28;30) What a pronouncement. There was no doubt that she would achieve a lot just because of this state. She lived to see the ministry of her son revealed and committed as well as see Him die to achieve his purpose on earth.
  • You will bring forth a son and…name Him Jesus. He will be great…called the Most High…reign over the house of Jacob forever….the Holy Spirit will come upon you and the power of the Most High will overshadow you…nothing is impossible with God” (v31; 35) Notice that the only way for Her destiny to be brought to its fullness was for the Holy Spirit to come and the Most high to OVERSHADOW Her…it was impossible any other way.
  • He provided proof by telling her of Elizabeth’s pregnancy and she had not yet heard. (v 36) She did not know that her cousin was pregnant in her old age and remember when they met later the child within Elizabeth jumped at the sound of Mary’s voice and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit (v41). God confirmed his word and reassured her of his purpose for her.
  • She said two things: “how will this be?”(v34) and “I am the Lord’s servant. May it be to me as you have said.”(v38) She is the simplest and strangest woman I have ever known. Just one question and acceptance of something that would change her life forever. She would be shunned if this came out but she was less concerned about that and more concerned about Her father’s opinion and the task He had set out for Her to do. She declared her position, the Lord’s servant, and accepted her job description for the moment….MIND BLOWING.

 Did she know all the things Mark Lowry asks in his song? I believe she had a clue but did not understand the fullness of it all. How would it be if she knew the kind of death her son would die? Or the life He would live? Or the trials and challenges He would face? Or the loss she would feel when He said that his family are those that love his father? Or when He asked her what the lack of wine had to do with Him? She had an inclination of what and who her son would be, yet even despite the fact that she was without a true understanding of the gravity of it she accepted her role and moved into it with confidence and peace. She did go away to find encouragement and lived with Elizabeth for a while. I wonder what she used that time for! And Elizabeth said “Blessed is she who has believed what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished,” (v44).

In so many ways it beats logic that there could be such easy acceptance of the things God is saying even when they are drastic and strange yet I know that this is the way God desires that we deal with Him. In this moment when He is saying all sorts of different things to us that are seemingly impossible and greater than we can imagine He desires for us to be like Mary and simply accept what He is saying and believe that because He has said it that is enough. So I ask myself…Is this for real? Can I ever come to the place where I will sooner accept than question and believe at the same time that I am and can be all that He has called me to be?

Did she know that her baby was Heaven’s perfect lamb? Probably not. Yet there such strange things happening about the time He was born and throughout his life that eventually she did come to see the fullness of what she had carried. Yet from the beginning she believed with all Her Heart and became a willing vessel for God to use and make his will known and delivered. WOW. This could only come from a deep confirmation and faith in God and the knowledge that He keeps his word and can be trusted.

As I write this I realise that I too may not know the true extent of what I carry in me and I would love to. However, I know for a fact that I am blessed and highly favoured and God wants to use me as a vessel to achieve something big for Him. The question He is simply asking of me is whether I am willing to say be it unto me according to your word, and walk in the direction He takes me without a care of how radical it sounds and seemingly stupid to the human eye. I am not seeking human approval rather my Heart craves Heavenly approval. I can only reach my determined destiny if I hold onto Him and make his will and plan for me the priority. I must walk in obedience to what He tells me regardless of how crazy it may seem and find peace and hope in Him. At the end of the day I know that He is in everything that happens in my life big or small and I must find the joy that comes from being close to Him.

 This my Lord is the desire of my Heart that I learn to follow you without question and fault and keep so close to you that there is no doubt in my Heart and mind. That I may learn to trust you and believe you above all others and that I may keep my Heart wholly devoted to you. May it be so to me as you have said!

 “Blessed is anyone who has believed that what the Lord has said to him/her will be accomplished.” (My paraphrase)


The Cost

Walking this new road is interesting and strange all in one. I have come to realise that the main agenda is to: LOVE GOD ONLY. This means that I believe all that he says and I do it all with comprehension and revelation that His word is supreme. This is achieved by dying to other things by the way of truth. Today I understood it all in a new way. Dying to self means to grasp the truth of the word of God and responding to it by

  • Hearing the word
  • Aligning to the word
  • Forsaking all other options and solutions

 God is seeking just one person who…deals honestly and seeks the truth in a city…then he will forgive… Jer 5:1…to the praise of his glorious name…Eph 1:6. When I realise that I am not the main agenda of this life then I realise that I am positioned to make greater impact than I ever understood. Someone said that when I give up something to be closer to God then I should count it not as a sacrifice but as a JOY. It is a joy because i am operating in the love and understanding of God and I am secure. When it is a joy it is better handled and resonates differently in my heart. It also brings out the light of Christ that I need to be showing and allows me to be a living epistle for the kingdom. Isn’t this a small price to pay? Isn’t it better than silver or gold?

 This process is not for nothing. It is the labour before I give birth to the great destiny and impact set out for me from the foundations of the earth that will make me better despite the pain. The outcome will be ever more beautiful. This child will be like a light or sweet aroma that draws others to God. Isn’t it amazing that God allows us to be a part of the birthing of this new dispensation?

 In all this He reminded me that, Christ is above all, a daily creator, unmovable, forever and secure. It is even more astounding when I realised that I have a choice to tap into this place and be obedient to his call. Scripture says that “without faith it is impossible to please God.” This is because he is the Maker of the impossible, the Creator of the unbelievable. God is TRUE, God is GRACIOUS. I serve an awesome, unbelievable, outlandish God. He is TRUE to His WORD and the destiny of His people is coming to pass in ways that are totally unexpected. All the glory and honour goes to him and he will share it with no one. God is in the midst of it all. He is redefining it all. There will be joy about what He’s doing to produce trees of righteousness to heal the nations. He will work through us to:

  • Heal
  • Restore
  • Guide

 The unfolding is daily and the last miracle he did will be nothing compared to the next thing He will unfold in the sight and hearing of all. We must be ready daily and willing to be obedient even when it seems strange and inexplicable. Daily we must seek to connect and find him before the onset of our day. We must also connect on a moment by moment basis and ask:

  • Who is the right recipient of the blessings of God through me?
  • What do I need to pour out on the nations?
  • Where should I be to bring praise to him?
  • What is my God-given office that I need to align for God to use fully?
  • What is God redefining for me?

 I must ALLOW God to do His thing and He will supply all MY needs according to His plan. He is indefinable, has no point of reference and there are no referral notes. I must be like Mary who despite the fact that she did not understand, said, “Be it unto me according to your word…” I must no longer hold back and be conformed to past but connect with the present and press into the deepest move of God. I must know and speak the Word, take charge of the situation with confidence and power knowing well that when I bow and worship him, He will come forth.


I once lived by rumours

This has been an amazing three weeks full of work and opportunity and experience. One thing I discovered in the course of this life is that my heart must remain in God or He will slow me down to ensure I am on where He wants me to be. Anyway, that is not what I am working through today.

 I read an interesting verse in scripture and things suddenly made sense. Let me explain.

 About three weeks ago I was in class and one of my colleagues was talking about how God has been teaching her about Himself through Job 38 – 42. She encouraged us to read it and I told myself I would one day. The time following that has been so busy I have barely known which leg is going ahead of the other let alone whether or not I am breathing and hence I have been living from moment to moment. The busiest part ended yesterday so I had time this morning to sit and reflect in silence and peace. What a blast. Yet, after the frenetic pace of the last few weeks this is strangely odd. Anyway, I was reading my personal notes and I came across that reference in Job and opted to read it. The closest Bible was not mine and a version I would never have had access to but I figured it was a Bible all the same so I read it. I don’t know about you but I always pray that the right scripture would jump out at me and hit me on the head to remember it. Today’s scripture was amazing….

            Job 42:2

I admit I once lived by rumours of you, now I have it firsthand…from my own eyes and ears (The Message)

WOW!!!!! Up until then I did not realise that I had truly lived that way. Ok, I know the miracles that have happened in my life and the goodness that has come out of the same however, in the new level I growing into I had not really connected with His word for me. I have heard it from people and He has spoken to me but it was yet to really connect with my heart and make lasting changes there. So this verse has begun an interesting quest in my heart to hear it daily, moment by moment and ensure that I am on the right track with God. In the midst of the rush that can sometimes be life I am learning that I can make things work differently and better and be stronger than I ever thought I could be. However the strength is not based on me and all the skills I have rather it is based on Jehovah and the call he has on my life.

 I am so blown away I am literally holding for dear life. The words of a song come to mind that could only reinforce that the writers had checked into a connection with God that could only have grown from the kind of threshold I am stepping on, here is the story:

Horatio G. Spafford was a successful attorney making his way in the rough-and-tumble world of a growing Chicago economy. He was a Christian who had no idea how soon his faith would be tested. In the late 1860’s, tragedy struck Mr. Spafford with the death of his son. Then he was devastated by the great Chicago fire of 1871. He had invested heavily in real estate along the shores of Lake Michigan, and his holdings were wiped out by this disaster.

In 1873 Spafford was advised by doctors that his wife needed a change of location due to health problems. At the same time, he had become involved with the evangelistic work of Dwight L. Moody and his partner Ira Sankey. Moody was preaching in England, and Spafford decided to sail over the Atlantic with his family to be of assistance.

A last-minute business emergency arose, and Spafford was forced to send his wife and daughters ahead on schedule. His plan was to join them on another ocean crossing later. But on the fateful day of November 22nd, 1873, the ship his family had boarded was struck by an English ship and sank in 12 minutes. Mrs. Spafford survived, but all four daughters — Tanetta, Maggie, Annie, and Bessie — were among the 226 who drowned in the icy waters of the Atlantic. From Cardiff, Wales, his wife Anna sent him the now famous telegram, “Saved alone.”

Who among us can imagine the grief that filled Horatio Spafford‘s soul when word of the disaster reached him? Perhaps even fewer of us can imagine what it was like for Spafford to board another ship to cross the swirling waters alone, knowing that he would pass right over the watery graves of his four daughters on the way to meet his grieving wife.

But on that ship, the light of faith illuminated the darkness of Spafford’s life. Out of the depths of his despair arose the certainty that God was in control, and that he would see his daughters again.

As Spafford’s ship passed near the spot where his daughters died, the Holy Spirit inspired him to write the words to this beautiful hymn. They speak to the eternal hope that all believers have, no matter what pain and grief may befall them on earth.

Philip P. Bliss was so impressed with Spafford’s text that he very shortly afterward wrote the music for it. The hymn tune is named Villa du Havre after the ship on which Spafford’s children perished. Ironically, Bliss himself died in a tragic train wreck shortly after writing this music. He survived the initial impact, but died when he went back into the flames in an unsuccessful attempt to rescue his wife. So this beloved song, which has helped so many, was born in unspeakable pain and grief.

For everyone who has lost a loved one, especially a child, there is no song that has brought more hope than the one Spafford penned while looking out over that endless ocean: “It is Well With My Soul.”

When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll,
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,
“It is well, it is well with my soul.”

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control:
That Christ hath regarded my helpless estate,
And has shed His own blood for my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll,
The trump shall resound and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

            Adapted from http://www.moodychurch.org/radio/transcripts/storiesofbelovedhymns.html

Is it well with your soul? Are you living from the understanding of your personal relationship and experience of God or is from that of others?  Personal is better and in the long run and gives the staying power. Where we are today is pivotal in the arrival of change in life as we know it. We must be assured that even when God asks us to do something that is seemingly outlandish or crazy we will be able to make the choice to do it because we know that He is in control and His will is higher than ours and of greater impact than ours. To be able to reach the mark that He has set out for us and run the established race we must believe that He is above all and in all He desires to make our lives the best and of the greatest impact that we can be. However, the starting point is the realisation and connection to a very personal relationship with Him based on a solid commitment that has risen out of a continued personal encounter with Him.

Today I latch onto the onset of something new and commit to make it better and better every day with the clear knowledge that My God who loves me deeply and incredibly will supply all my needs according His riches in glory and give His angels charge over me…when I am like Job and have exhausted all my questions and have learned to fully love and trust me He will provide and restore in the measure He deems fit…Job 42:12-17.

May we all walk in the same confidence that He is in charge and able and we are but vessels of His will.