So I am walking down this new road and realised that alas…very little had changed. How could that be? Just the other day I was all high and glad to be different then poof….it has all gone.
So here I am wondering what is wrong with me. The fire is still there but is smaller; I seem to be walking with a lot of struggle instead of consistent victory. It is as through I have lost something I had on that first day…oh what has happened to the instant ability to conquer and vanquish the dragons of the past? When we see something new and make an adjustment to adopt it into our lives, we figure that all it will take to do it remain there is to choose to things differently. Wrong…so absolutely wrong!
Today I realised that the reason I am kinda stuck is the fact that I have not mastered the changes that are mine to master. Ok, let me explain. Yes I have the victory, yes my way has changed but have my internal behaviour and beliefs changed instantly? No not yet. In fact they are lagging way behind because this is a new season with a new mode of operation that is nothing like what I am used to. My whole mental, social, physical and spiritual paradigms must shift and the new ones are still filtering in.
Ok, let me say it differently. Let’s say I am overweight and have been told I must lose weight. There is the reality that thinking about losing weight will not get me there no matter how long and hard I think. I can dream and dream and dream but to no avail. There are practical steps I need to choose to take to achieve my goal.
First, I must find the reason I am overweight. Is it because food is a substitute? Do I just eat the wrong things and never exercise? Am I careless about what I eat? What is the reason behind all the weight I carry?
Next, I must commit to change my way of life in a way that will eliminate the things that help me put on the weight. This is where the work is. There must be a change of diet, a definite way to deal with my emotional issues and the inclusion of exercise in my life. The intensity or variety of the above combination will be different for everyone based on our situation. However, each of us must find our winning combination. Some of us will need accountability partners while others won’t. Some will exercise twice daily while others just a couple of times a week.
The Christian walk is similar to a weight loss plan but is not one size fits all and therefore I cannot prescribe for you what has worked for me. Each of us must go to the gym instructor and discuss the program that will work for us and make a personal commitment to the program. God deals with each of us as He created us hence the difference.
There will be days when we may not walk as we should but the joy is the “a saint is just a sinner who falls down and gets up.” We must just keep getting up and asking Jehovah for help to walk aright and keep walking.
I know for sure that I am on the right track and even when I fall flat on my face as I have done so often, he is there in love to pick me up, dust me off and lead back to the path. I am so glad that all I have to be is honest and normal and Jehovah He will guide my path and lead me on the right way home. Are you on the path and in close relationship with Him?