Monthly Archives: February 2012


Starting over can be just impossible!!!! In our lives we all have things that need to change yet we seem unable to move from our comfort zone to the next level. Many of us have been in the same situation in different areas of our lives and we have begun to be confounded about the reality that often there has been no change in attitude and execution over a long period of time. as is my characteristic nature, I sat and thought about this long and hard only to realise that the problem is that we are all trying to do it on our own.


Sitting on the sofa reading it suddenly was reaffirmed in my heart that we are going about this the wrong way. We are trying to change. We are trying to do good. We are trying to be happy and make people happy. We are working so hard but nothing is working out; not work, not home life, not church…NOTHING. This was simply because we are not supposed to do any of these things on our own. We are children of the great healer, provider, lover, supporter, friend…the source of all we would ever need yet we keep failing and falling on our faces over and over again.


Suddenly, Papa spoke into my heart, “I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” Bombshell!!! Apart from Him we can do nothing…There are many things I have to let go of and allow Him to lead me and guide me. I needed to sit at his feet and learn to go about life one step at a time and reach to Him for direction on each and everything.


This is the way to get to the centre of His will and reach prosperity on his terms rather than on my terms. To become all he desires for me to be and then have the kind of impact he desires for me to have…WOW, I am back on the right path one step at a time every day.


As always, I stunned myself. I have been developing a database and there are contacts on one section that I have looked for all day and not found even with the help of insiders and the web. So imagine my shock when the reality occurred that just because one way worked to get the first set does not mean it will work again like clockwork for the second. Wololo…this second section was not to be sourced the same way as the first and I needed to find an alternative.

So it got me thinking…how does this apply elsewhere? Are there areas I am not getting the message?

Ok…I have thought for a while and I know that indeed there are areas of wrong emphasis in my life that need resolution. These are areas where I am not really sure how to handle or am too caught up with the past and what worked then that I do not know how to forge ahead. They could also be areas where I feel vulnerable hence I follow the crowd or the easy road out. It could also be because of whom I have opted to spend my time with. Mmmhhmm, there are just so many possibilities I never realised just how many.


So here I am working on finding a new way to get the info I need and I am reminded that I must remember to daily walk hand in hand with the Spirit of God and do things as he has said. I also remembered that I had not asked Him if the same mode of data collection would work or if it was how He would provide it. Wow!

 Moral of the story?

Constant communion with God is paramount. He is there 24/7 and will always speak. However, the question really is…am I tuned in properly or am I only half listening amid the clutter and clatter of life? …MMMHHMMMM