Daily Archives: October 20, 2013

Under the Blankets


Have you ever opened your bed and got in only to shiver? Yes, under the blankets it’s often very cold. All day we have been out and made things happen and then we get ready for bed and jump in then wah….it is cold. I used to wonder how to counter this. Year in year out I shuddered then I came across a couple of solutions:
1. Wear full pyjamas
2. Wear socks
3. Sit on your bed for a while before you get in

I have found that option 3 works best for me. You see, by the time I get in the sheets are warm and I can fall asleep immediately. Unlike a friend of mine who takes an hour to sleep, I like to be out in a couple of minutes tops. A warm bed does it for me.

This got me thinking about relationships. Yes, relationships. I am talking about all relationships; family, work, church, friends….any relationship in your life. How do we meet people? Do we just meet them and jump in expecting to hit it off immediately? Do we cover up our vulnerabilities slightly and sit close? Do we approach people from a safe distance and slowly but surely get to know the people before you get comfy?

I am the classic slow sit in bed kind. I never really jump in deep. Yet based on who I M, it is easy to chat and get to know people as we sit together. Of course in life I have been heart broken severally because I have assumed that the rest of the world is like me and so my expectations have been really great. As you may have guessed by now that I have experienced very deep heart ache and disappointments time and time again.

So this got me thinking and I eventually realised the pressure I was putting on people. Pressure? Of course, I wanted people to do things in a certain way, connect with me in a certain way and reach out in a certain way. Lol…as if we are all clones….Eventually though, I grew up 🙂 and learnt to let go of my expectations and learn to live in peace and comfort. This hasn’t been a piece of cake but what good thing in life comes easy? Right?

In a recent discussion with one of my friends I shared that I had reached a point in life where I no longer carry bile for people or hold grudges. In a swift rejoinder I was aptly corrected. Clarity came when my friend said that what had actually happened was that I had stopped carrying people. As we spoke, indeed I realised that he was right.

I realised that it was indeed a gradual process and I had grown up and matured over a period to get there. Most of this growth happened in the midst of great challenges that could have broken me or made me stronger. I bet you can guess which way the scale tipped. :-). Several things had to happen for this level of maturity and reality to take root as follows:
1. I had to accept myself as I am, as a special unique creation of God
2. I had to define my life, purpose, needs and path
3. I had to get comfortable in my own skin and live there gracefully
4. I had to realise that no one can be changed so I must accept them as they are so that they can accept me as I am
5. I had to release everyone from my expectations

This process is still on going but I have already found great peace, freedom and productivity. Changing the game plan for getting under the blankets has changed the way my life plays out. I am free, I am real, I am stress free.

How about you?

Fully Reliant

Faith Tabernacle

October 18, 2013


Rely on Me, says the Lord, for I am your strength when you feel weak and unable to rise to the occasion.  When you cannot raise yourself up, let Me lift you up.  Nothing is too difficult for Me.  Believe that I will intervene on your behalf and do that which is beyond your human energy or ability to achieve.  Your faith will make it possible.

Mark 11:22 So Jesus answered and said to them, “Have faith in God.”


I borrowed this from a post by Ms. Gloria Muthoka…a great artist and writer 20.10.13

Two days ago, 7 o’clock found me on the road having woken up early to get home to catch up with a cousin who was to be travelling out of Nairobi. Well, of course at that hour, all the busy people seem to be on the road – dropping kids at school, getting to work and everything these busy people do at that hour of the morning every day of the week. As I sat in the car, I was getting comfortable with the debate in my mind about whether I missed this kind of ‘busyness’ or not, when I realized that there was an infusion of red everywhere.

Little pudgy red, skinny red, slow moving red, red skipping all over the place, some red tugging at a bigger hazier pale colour and then some grey and white. As I zoned back in it all quickly came into focus, children being walked to school. Children of all shapes and sizes in these BRIGHT red cardigans. I smiled at the boy with the big shorts that seemed to wear him, at the little girl with a skirt all the way to her little feet, at the children that happily tried to race their mother to school, at the calm girl as walked quietly with her help, at the boy whose mother was shouting as he recklessly crossed the street and at the boy that gestured wildly as he spun his tale.

As I continued to watch these children and adults around me, I noticed that there was one common thing – most of the adults held the tiny hands firmly and guided them along (ok, at times it looked like dragging). I couldn’t help but think about how God holds each of our hands and guides us along the school of life. The best thing about Him is that he doesn’t leave us at the massive daunting gate; He comes to class with us.


Truly we can rely on Papa because He never leaves us alone