THE CHRISTIAN WALK

It’s Different Now


“Withholding Nothing” 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cUbQFR0X8c (Concert Version)williammcdowell_withholdingnothing_620

I surrender all to you
Everything I give to you
withholding nothing
withholding nothing

Withholding nothing
Withholding nothing

I give you all of me
I give you all of me
I give you all of me
I give you all of me

King Jesus
My Savior
Forever
I give you all of me
I give you all of me

I surrender all to you
Everything I give to you
withholding nothing
withholding nothing

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I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
All I want is you
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What does it mean to Surrender All?
What does it mean to Give Myself Away?
What does it mean to withhold nothing?
It means something different for each off us.
Surrender to you isn’t the same to me.believe
I can’t tell you what surrender will look like to you
It will be different from what it means to me
There is no blanket answer because we are all created different
Each with a different destiny and calling
The season has changed…the times have shifted
We have been launched into a new depth
With this new depth comes deeper faith and connections
Taste and see the goodness of God and the blessings of grace
THE CHRISTIAN WALK, The Simple Life

To Serve & Protect


I remember this song from Sunday school:

I’m a soldier in the army, I’m a soldier in the army,army 2

I’m a soldier in the army, I’m a soldier in the army of the Lord

If I live let me live in the army, If I live let me live in the army,

If I live let me live in the army, If I live let me live in the army of the Lord

If I die let me die in the army, If I die let me die in the army,

If I die let me die in the army, If I die let me die in the army of the Lord.

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Today I was watching the Mashujaa Day celebrations and I saw something I hadn’t thought about before it hit me right between the eyes. You see, the disciplined forces were on parade at the event and their levels of precision were amazing. It was amazing watching them moving from three lines to two, spacing themselves just right; marching in time with each other while saluting and looking at their commander in chief; getting ready to remove the presidential podium; their speed, precision and intensity was off the hook. Then I realised that this kind of behaviour doesn’t come out of the blue but is practised and cultivated over time.

I began to understand that life in the disciplined forces is different. In the disciplined forces everyone takes orders and obeys them promptly. There is no negotiating or wheeling and dealing. Training starts by breaking away from the way one’s mind worked in the past and putting lots of focus and practice into forming new thought processes and allegiances. My simple understanding of this is that you are responsible for your buddy, the safety of your nation hence you are required to respond accurately, immediately and unconditionally to orders. In the heat of the battle you defend your team and don’t leave anyone behind. Even after you leave the forces you are still a part of an elite team…you always belong. Finally there are consequences for disobeying orders. An order somewhat obeyarmy 3ed is an order disobeyed.

Just last week a minister friend of mine brought perspective on a similar parallel for us as Christians. He is part of a team of ministers who are committed to the service of God and are driven by the passion to serve God to the fullest of their calling all the days of their lives. They have learnt to be ready at all times for any assignment or should I say deployment? They always have their travel documents on hand and a bag packed in case an assignment comes up that has to be handled immediately. Imagine living with that kind of expectancy and readiness; it changes life completely. As I listened I silently wondered what it took for them to get there. Oh how I would love that to be there on a daily basis.

As followers of Christ we are called to live like soldiers…2 Tim 2:4 No one serving as a soldier gets entangled in civilian affairs, but rather tries to please his commanding officer.

We are called to be ready in and out of season to testify, serve or be deployed wherever and whenever needed; to travel army 4light and carry little to no luggage except the essentials; to stay connected to purpose and interested in establishing the kingdom of God; to live as true examples of the love, compassion, forgiveness and the true character of God. Our Commander In Chief is the reason we walk tall. He is honest and true and leads us in everlasting paths. We are called to trust Him no matter what and know that He will not send us anywhere that would destroy us. His will is for the good and protection of humanity. This makes me think about an earthly Commander In Chief who seeks the peace and protection of the nation over and above everything else. The role of the defence forces is safety and protection and they give up their lives willingly for the same. They know that they stand between the enemy and the safety of the people and they fight for that.

My mind is still reeling and I have more questions than answers today so I will share them and let each one of us answer them for ourselves.

  • Why do so many of us struggle with fully following the instructions we receive that we hesitate when the instructions aren’t the usual or are outside our usual scope?
  • How do we learn to trust unconditionally and freely that God indeed is able?
  • Could it be that there is so much room to grow that we haven’t uncovered?
  • Do I know that the world depends on my obedience and action according to the will and plan of God?
  • Am I willing to put myself between the danger and the people for the sake of their lives?
  • Am I more concerned about the state of the nation and my call to service than filling my stomach and stockpiling for myself?

So many questions that need to be answered. Shalom.

THE CHRISTIAN WALK

Called to Service


I remember this song from Sunday school:

I’m a soldier in the army, I’m a soldier in the army,army 2

I’m a soldier in the army, I’m a soldier in the army of the Lord

If I live let me live in the army, If I live let me live in the army,

If I live let me live in the army, If I live let me live in the army of the                    Lord

If I die let me die in the army, If I die let me die in the army,

If I die let me die in the army, If I die let me die in the army of the

Lord.

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Today I was watching the Mashujaa Day celebrations and something I hadn’t thought about before hit me right between the eyes. You see, the disciplined forces were on parade at the event and their levels of precision were amazing. It was amazing watching them moving from three lines to two, spacing themselves just right; marching in time with each other while saluting and looking at their commander in chief; getting ready to remove the presidential podium; their speed, precision and intensity was off the hook. Then I realised that this kind of behaviour doesn’t come out of the blue but is practised and cultivated over time.

I began to understand that life in the disciplined forces is different. In the disciplined forces everyone takes orders and army 3obeys them promptly. There is no negotiating or wheeling and dealing. Training starts by breaking away from the way one’s mind worked in the past and putting lots of focus and practice into forming new thought processes and allegiances. My simple understanding of this is that you are responsible for your buddy, the safety of your nation hence you are required to respond accurately, immediately and unconditionally to orders. In the heat of the battle you defend your team and don’t leave anyone behind. Even after you leave the forces you are still a part of an elite team…you always belong. Finally there are consequences for disobeying orders. An order somewhat obeyed is an order disobeyed.

Just last week a minister friend of mine brought perspective on a similar parallel for us as Christians. He is part of a team of ministers who are committed to the service of God and are driven by the passion to serve God to the fullest of their calling all the days of their lives. They have learnt to be ready at all times for any assignment or should I say deployment? They always have their travel documents on hand and a bag packed in case an assignment comes up that has to be handled immediately. Imagine living with that kind of expectancy and readiness; it changes life completely. As I listened I silently wondered what it took for them to get there. Oh how I would love that to be there on a daily basis.

As followers of Christ we are called to live like soldiers…2 Tim 2:4 No one serving as a soldier gets entangled in civilian affairs, but rather tries to please his commanding officer.

We are called to be ready in and out of season to testify, serve or be deployed wherarmy 4ever and whenever needed; to travel light and carry little to no luggage except the essentials; to stay connected to purpose and interested in establishing the kingdom of God; to live as true examples of the love, compassion, forgiveness and the true character of God. Our Commander In Chief is the reason we walk tall. He is honest and true and leads us in everlasting paths. We are called to trust Him no matter what and know that He will not send us anywhere that would destroy us. His will is for the good and protection of humanity. This makes me think about an earthly Commander In Chief who seeks the peace and protection of the nation over and above everything else. The role of the defence forces is safety and protection and they give up their lives willingly for the same. They know that they stand between the enemy and the safety of the people and they fight for that.

My mind is still reeling and I have more questions than answers today so I will share them and let each one of us answer them for ourselves.

  • Why do so many of us struggle with fully following the instructions we receive that we hesitate when the instructions aren’t the usual or are outside our usual scope?
  • How do we learn to trust unconditionally and freely that God indeed is able?
  • Could it be that there is so much room to grow that we haven’t uncovered?
  • Do I know that the world depends on my obedience and action according to the will and plan of God?
  • Am I willing to put myself between the danger and the people for the sake of their lives?
  • Am I more concerned about the state of the nation and my call to service than filling my stomach and stockpiling for myself?

So many questions that need to be answered. Shalom.

THE CHRISTIAN WALK

Life Unfolding


There are times in life when the questions are many more than the answers and this is one of those times for me. Often it’s not even about my personal life and the things unfolding there but about the lives of others and the things unfolding there. This has continued to affect my perspective in life for the better.

jn44I grew up happy and relatively uninhibited by life because of the love of those around us. One family that was part of this happy and strong foundation is the Neimeyer family…Larry, Judy, Heath and Ronan. We lived in the same neighbourhood, carpooled to school, went on joint family outings and holidays. It was four adults and five children between the ages of 9 and 5 years. Wow…I see it in a different light now that I have a son in that bracket…mad respect to the folks…mad respect. I remember trips to Naro Moru River Lodge and Naivasha, meals at each other’s homes, playing in the back yard till night fall and being dirty like crazy. The thing that stands out from that time was the warmth, love and family. For about five years life was idyllic, and then came end of primary school and boarding school in high school and we lost touch.

Last year I met Uncle Larry at a restaurant and we joked about how great it would be have coffee soon and catch up. Even as I had every intention of doing so, it didn’t happen as life took on a life of its own. I reconnected with Aunt Judy on Facebook and found some really amazing photography she was taking. Here’s a secret… pictures of scenery and plant life have me hooked without trouble. Anyway, we would chat and I have indeed used some of her pictures in my articles. What none of us could conceive was that 2014 would throw a curveball bigger than a football field.

Early this year Aunt Judy was diagnosed with cancer. It hit hard because I was so used to her sunny disposition and energetic pace in life I didn’t know how to take it. I watched from the side-lines for a while to see if this would change and to my jn56amazement very little changed. All I saw was courage and encouragement for all of us and when she was down she asked for prayers for courage and strength. Every post I saw and still see celebrates life and the daily good. Everyday meant that there was something to smile about. Then I say the most amazing thing I have ever seen…My Tribute  from Uncle Larry about all Aunt Judy’s attributes from A to Z. I cried. I cried because of the depth of love and commitment that this had taken to put together. I cried because I had never seen something like this done. I cried as this amazing celebration of life, love and companionship. I was totally blown away

One Tuesday my sister Tibaga and I went to see them at home. The only thing I can is that it was like time travel. The house is the same one we used to go to with the same warmth, love and welcome. I could see all of us running around, through the kitchen and sitting round the side and back in. The colours were what I remembered…it was like coming home. The heart and soul I remembered from this home was thriving…it was a strong healthy heartbeat. It was true to who I knew Uncle Larry and Aunt Judy to be. The only difference was Aunt Judy isn’t well in the body but her spirit is on fire.

jn44There is a certainty that amazed me. She talks about how excited she is to see people come through her doors. She keeps you in stitches about things that have happened in the last few months. She talks about how we will all certainly die. She talks about songs she wants sung at her funeral. Yet, she is deeply concerned about brining joy to those around her. They shared how they take cards with them when she goes for chemo because they need to share the peace they have found. They talk of nurses and doctors also need the encouragement because they have to deal with frequent losses of their patients. They talk about how everyone there struggles with the pain regardless of creed or faith. It struck me that as they share these stories they smile at each other, finish each other’s sentences and are at peace. It is amazing. We could have stayed there for a couple of days but we understood that she needed to rest and we needed to get home.

It was surreal to see the new depth of understanding of life on display in front of us. It wasn’t denial or simple acceptance. It was like a mantle they have accepted with joy and expectation, walking through and working through the pain everyday yet still looking for the plans and purpose of God in everything. Everyday Aunt Judy posts something on Facebook that keeps us abreast of her progress and following her has taught me a lot in the past few months and left me with more questions than answers as is usual in life.

I am left wondering:

  • Am I so clear, certain and confident in my relationship with God that nothing will shake my belief in Him regardless of the circumstances?
  • Can I honestly tell God when and where it hurts and allow Him to heal it or help me deal with it?
  • Am I eager to follow in His footsteps even when I can’t see the way ahead?
  • Is my heart and soul so connected to God that I see the hurt and pain in the world and do something about it?jn28
  • Is my heart so connected to God that I can see good in all circumstances and celebrate it with Him?
  • Do I really believe God’s word that:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8: 28 

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow — not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

My heart is still working on these questions. This year I have seen more people I know leave this world than any other year in my life and so the questions are asked over and over and linger a lot longer now. Yet I choose to rise and put my hope in God for where else can I go.

jn61If I raise my eyes to the hills, from where will my help come?
My help comes from Adonai, the maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip — your guardian is not asleep.
No, the guardian of Isra’el never slumbers or sleeps.

Adonai is your guardian; at your right hand
Adonai provides you with shade —6 the sun can’t strike you during the day or even the moon at night.

Adonai will guard you against all harm; he will guard your life.
Adonai will guard your coming and going from now on and forever.

Psalms 121 Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)

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All images in this post courtesy of Judy Neimeyer

THE CHRISTIAN WALK, The Simple Life

Step Out & Do Something


I grew up with no TV during the week like many of my peers but in this day and age it is different. The thing is about balance and how long not none at all. The last couple of weeks have been a lot of fun with time to connect with my lil man. We have been watching movies together every evening and it has been amazing. I think I need to do this for a while to come. Lol…we watch reruns a lot because we are done with the collection but there is something new in each episode. The best part at times is when one of us (more often him) talks along with the script. When you can do that know that you have spent a lot of time watching that particular movie.

The other day we are watching Happy Feet. Happy Feet is the story of young Emperor Penguin who is absolutely different from all the other penguins of his

Emperor penguins
Emperor penguins

kind. He was dropped by his father before he was born. He came out of the shell feet first. He danced instead of sung. He left home and joined a posse of Isabeline Penguins because no one else accepts him as he is. In the movie this one penguin misfit goes on and saves the day for the whole population from starvation. However, there is also the deeper reality that there is a big fight between the old way of doing things and the new way Mumble presents. The elders have a certain view of life and the way they have lived it and so they want the community to hold onto these ways as they are benchmark of their long existence. Then enter the young Mumble

Isabeline penguins
Isabeline penguins

who is totally different and is only trying to be himself and find out what is causing all their problems. Mumble sees things differently because the reality of his life and the challenges he has faced since he was born have changed his perspective. It has caused him to ask questions and not just accept things as this is the way we do it.

Mumble comes back home to win Gloria’s heart with the help of his posse of Isabeline penguins. These little guys are hilarious and seemingly mad but they accept Mumble as he is and do everything in their power to help each other. However, Mumble is not successful and is thrown out of home for encouraging other to challenge the status quo and try nothing new i.e. dancing. His pursuit for the truth leads him to go to see Lovelace for answers. Lovelace is an Isabeline penguin with a special lace around his neck bestowed on him by the ‘gods’ in truth it is an engine gasket. Lovelace leads them to the place he got this lace and they find that it is the place where man has left a lot of waste from expeditions into the Antarctica and this waste is polluting the environment. They encounter a lot of danger the greatest being a large fishing trawler. Now Mumble sees what is taking their food and decides to do all he can to stop the ‘aliens’ aka man from killing them. He asks the posse to take care of Gloria and he dives off a very tall ice cliff to follow the trawler and try to talk to the ‘aliens’ (aka humans) to leave their food supply alone.

The movie goes on beyond here but this part struck me and struck me hard. It is interesting when I look critically at Mumble. There are things I see that stand out and take my breath away. You see, he:

  • Thought little of his personal needs and was driven by the need to solve the big problem of food for his kind

    Mumble in Happy Feet
    Mumble in Happy Feet
  • Figured that no price was too high for him to pay for a lasting solution
  • Took the risk to jump off the top of a mighty iceberg into the water below to follow a trawler to places unknown
  • Swam for all he was worth and ended up stranded on a beach tired and almost dead
  • Never lost hope even when he was in captivity
  • Came back to save his kind

Slowly I begun to think about my life and the way it was rolling out. Questions run through my mind demanding to be answered.

  • Have I found my true purpose i.e. the reason I was created and placed on this earth?
  • Do I live my life with complete dedication to the solution I was put here to provide?
  • Have I got discouraged by the challenges of life and so I have given up my hopes and dreams?
  • Do I have a posse who keep me going when things are bad, who laugh with me, cry with me, walk with me, believe in and with me?
  • Will I one day reach the goal that was set out for me?
  • Do I even desire to reach the dream that God has for me?

    Mumble
    Mumble

The easy thing to do is to say yes to all the questions above but is that yes really true? Indeed there have been days when I have wanted to throw in the towel because life hasn’t panned out as I had planned and I am tired of toiling? Yet it is in those moments when I need to dig deep and find the connection with God and remember that HE is indeed on my side and is interested in me and the things I am going through. I must remember that the road I walk is as much for me as it is for others I need to touch so that I can help them grow. The good times and the hard times are to be celebrated and shared so that everyone can understand that there are lessons in everything.

I therefore choose to be energised to realise that there are things that await my touch so that God can resolve them. There are lives I am sent here to touch and be touched by. I find that I owe it to God to get up off of my back side and stop complaining about what I don’t have and instead focus on what HE has given me to give to others then all other things will begin to fall into place. I must live my life for more than just the money I can make tthe needs I can provide for my family. I must live for bigger better and greater things and these smaller ones will indeed be covered. I must share about my good and hard days because someone somewhere will be encouraged. I also realise that I am the sum total of everywhere I have been and every challenge and victory I have faced and my life is a book that someone else needs to read to provide the roadmap for them.

I choose this day to pursue the invisible, seemingly impossible great things that God has laid in my heart to do for HIM and I believe that as I do them HE will come through and sort out the little things that HE has promised for my life.

I stretch out my hand to you, take it and let us walk together into the things God has laid out for us to for His honour ad His Glory. Amen

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