Monthly Archives: April 2017

You Are Here

You are here and You said you will never leave,

We need you lord, we need you lord,
We need you Lord x4
You are true, and Your promises remain

We trust you lord, we trust you lord

We trust you Lord x4
You are king and You reign forever more

Reign in my life, reign in my life

Reign in my life x4

We love you Lord (repeat)

Dr. Tumi – You are here

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Jehovah God is with me always, has always been and will always be. I am just beginning to really grasp what this means? In the past my response was a normal one because knowing God was normal then questions begun to rise in my heart.

Do I actively connect, worship, listen, accept and respond or do I just enjoy the warmth of His embrace and walk away? Do I understand that there is as reason for this connection? Do I understand why He has chosen to work so deeply in me? Am I living out the fullness of my calling? Am I aware of His desired end game in my life? Do I really understand who I must connect with an pass on His love to? What do I need to showcase about Him and His plan for me? How can I say that I love and serve God but my life is bland and doesn’t reflect the very nature of my Father? Does my life reflect the deep sweet and intense flavour of God?

He is all loving and wise; He is a consuming fire, a righteous judge, a compassionate father, a rod, a staff. He keeps his word and promises. He is unchanged and unchanging. He turns to me and says I am here; I am ready to change your life. Take my hand and let’s walk together. He shows His love for me through nature, through people, circumstances, everything around me. He defines my view of the world, my conversations, He guides my choices and draws me in so that I am sure of my walk. He walks with me and though He doesn’t simplify the path, He teaches me that it is all about His plan and the process that will bring me into the fullness of His plan.

Nothing can ever change the fact that I am His and He is with me even when in the eyes of men my life is falling apart. Everything he allows me to walk through is for His honour and glory and my good. Nothing is in vain and I cannot fail as long as I am walking as he has instructed. The end game is to raise me to the perfect version of me He saw before He knit me together in my mother’s womb. The me that would be free of culture and religious practise but deeply steeped in His love and truth, led by His word and living out His will. Oh that I would become all that and then some. Oh that I would rise to the peak of His plan for me.

So Lord, reign in my life, take charge and control, raise me up to all you knew I would be, bring me into the fullness of who you saw before the foundations of the world. Draw me closer and reveal yourself to me, in me, with me and through me. Let it be known first in my heart and then through my life that You are indeed a true God.

Truly Living

It has been on my heart for a long time to do a devotional that captures my walk and the things I have learnt along the way. However every time I sat down to write it there were so many things competing for attention that I didn’t get around to it.

2017 the year of manifestation started with a clear knowledge that the time indeed has come to bring forth all those things that God has laid in my heart previously.

Truly Living simply shares lessons learnt as I learn to walk in total trust and fidelity to God and allow Him to undo everything I knew that was law and breathe His life into my life. Simple lessons that have and continue to change the way I live, love, share and care. Simple truths that have totally changed my view and the desires of my heart.

A deep work in my heart pour out for all.

This devotional is the proof of a new move of God in me.

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Shalom

Nothing without you

I am on an ongoing journey to complete dependance on God. Sometimes I lose focus and got overwhelmed by the things going on in and around me. It creeps In one of those moments recently I just wanted to pack my bag and go home never to reappear then a chat with a dear, dear brother challenged me to change my focus and sent me back to my play list. The song at the top of the list was Nothing Without You by Dr. Tumi. This song flipped my thinking on its head. Look at these simple words…..

If it had not been for the Lord,
Who was always on my side,
The enemy would have swallowed us,
Would have drowned in the waters,
But our souls have found An Escape,
A hiding place in You,
The Fowler’s snare is broken,
Our help is in the Name of the Lord.

And I’m nothing without You, without You,
You are the air that I breathe
Can’t live without You, without You Jesus,
In You I live and move and have my being

Hosanna to Jehovah,
You are the air that I breathe
Hallelujah, hallelujah
In You I live and move and have my being

Could this be true? Is it possible that I am nothing without Him? Do I truly live, move and have my being only in Him? Is it true I can’t live without Him? Can this song be really true? Some scholars say such songs are emotive and cannot be true, that at the very least such thinking is farfetched and romanticised only useful for person to person relationships. Could they be right?

As I listened and allowed my heart to still, I realised that I had a choice to make. In that moment of total albeit temporary despair, I had to make a choice to give up or find a way out. In reality, the only place I could reach was the depths of my heart, but that place was empty, worn out, kaput!!! The only available way out of there was into the hiding place in Him that is based on His word and promise to be with me. The place where I could ask all my questions and face the failures in my life and find acceptance, correction and healing. A place of deep conviction of sin but even deeper conviction of love and compassion. He reminded me that before the foundations of the earth He knew

He reminded me that before the foundations of the earth He knew I would have this very experience this very day but He also knew that if I chose to turn to Him in total awareness that I couldn’t live without Him I would find strength, grace and enabling to come out stronger and better. I remembered Jesus in the Garden when His human spirit was overwhelmed with the reality that He was about to die, He found strength from talking to His father, remembering the love that drove this process and therefore let go of the need to be safe in the hands of the world for the safety in the arms of God based on the divine plan…to save the souls of mankind. He rose a stronger, better man

My hearts cry became that I find that same place and balance in God that He is there no matter what and His plan for me is above all others. I chose to lay down my life once again before Him knowing full well He’s got me covered.

 

Never Wasted!

IMG-20170305-WA0030There are times in life that things go diametrically different from our plans. I remember being in high school and failing harder than I ever had in my whole life before then and also after then. It didn’t matter how much I read, I failed. I had a D average for a couple of terms even after free marks in every class. My math teacher gave me a mark for every step of the question and I still had 16% in each paper so the average was 16%. So D average for several terms miraculously became a B- average and I went straight to university.

I had told God…mark my words…I told him and didn’t ask him. I said that on no uncertain terms would I go to pre-university. I didn’t make a grade for direct entrance I would learn a trade and pursue it. I wonder if my folks would have allowed that! Mmmmhhhh!

The poor grades had a massive impact on my sense of self and I struggled to prove to myself that I wasn’t foolish. Yes, I had begun to feel foolish with every failed exam. At the end of the day, it is another friend in university who helped me get past this sense of failure by believing in me and loving out of the despair.

Over the years as the despair would resurface when projects or life just isn’t working, this very friend would say things that made me mad enough with the way I had responded to force action and movement forward.

I now know that this person is my trigger person. They have license to tell me the truth whether or not I like it and stand there until they are sure I understand that it is love that drives them and not a mean spirit. I have come to understand that I don’t really have the depth and breadth of the latitude with them that they have with but that again is by divine design.

So it gets me thinking, what are we doing about the times in our lives when things aren’t working and we cannot see the way forward? Will we whine and complain or will we seek guidance and understanding for the depth, length and breadth of the situation.

It is better to understand that God has a plan that we cannot thwart and no lesson is wasted. How do I know? Quite simply! Romans 5:1-5 says “Faith Triumphs in Trouble”.

Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have[a] peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Tribulation, struggle, challenge, hardships etc, pull or push us into the place of deeper engagement with God and a deeper expression of Him as long as it is the appointed path for us. I  have learnt to celebrate everything because it is how I will grow deeper and fuller into Him who thought of me before the foundations of the earth to honour him.