I went to my local fellowship and was chatting away with the young people when one of my friends came up, looked at me and walked away. I could see there was something she was looking at but couldn’t quite make out what it was. Later as I stood with mutual friends, she came back said hi and her next statement floored me, “You know there is a blog we follow and we have to ensure that we see the evidence of the things written.” I smiled because she is right.
Talk about a 10,000watt spotlight in the middle of the day. Yes, 10,000 watts combined with full African sunlight. I felt ‘mulikad’ (spotlighted) to the nth degree. Quickly I realised that once I laid myself out there, I don’t have the luxury of giving up or going back because there are lives premised on my coming out. there are people who will be and are encouraged by my journey. I have become my Father’s showcase.
Then He whispered, “There is so much more.”
“What do you mean so much more? Can I really take more than this pressure?”
“People are watching, reading, hoping, waiting to see the outcome…that’s just pressure.”
“Who asked you to be on this path?”
“You my Father.”
“Have I failed you yet?”
“So why the fear and concern?”
“I don’t like the spotlight. I like to live in the background.”
“I have chosen you as the perfect showcase for this segment and I have provided all the help you need, so unless you think I made the wrong choice, and that is all in your head, you are fully kitted for this journey.”
It took me a while to understand these words because my heart and head weren’t in alignment. But it is true, I set out on this journey because of a word He spoke to me about my current weight and where He needed me to be. It was because I had challenges I need to get past and He had the perfect solution. This journey has helped increase my ability to stay the course, trust God for grace, walk paths I would earlier have avoided, push beyond my limits, believe and act in that faith.
This reminded me of the scripture:
1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. 3Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you won’t become weary and give up. 4After all, you have not yet given your lives in your struggle against sin. Hebrews 12:1-4
My health and fitness life is driven by my faith life so I must be growing in both at equal speed or I will become imbalanced. I do not do it to keep the crowd happy or engaged, rather I see it as a marathon to reach the goal my Father has set out for me. He has even provided people on the sidelines to watch, cheer me on and cause me to reflect on the process as I keep going; for in the crowd people have reached out to ask for help, advise, encourage me, share their triumphs and milestones.
Let us run with perseverance the race marked out or us… v1