Remember how I said, I am learning to deal with my stuff? What are the odds that a conversation with one of my young people would be the trigger to confirm the urgent need to deal? That simple conversation was the key I needed to begin unpacking this matter.

I don’t understand why I am still here…I thought I had dealt with this matter?

What happened?

I got really mad with someone and it felt like it was all coming back.

What do you mean?

I was chatting with Sue and she was annoying and I asked her to stop but she wouldn’t and just like that I was raging mad. If she wasn’t my little sister I might have snapped harder.

Oh wow!

How do I get past this?

Remember the secret place?

Yes, I remember that.

What is it?

A personal place where I meet with God and connect to His word over me!

Absolutely! This is where all dealing happens and change starts.

How?

It starts with finding God, spending time with Him, learning to hear His voice and know His heart, mind and His plan for me.  Learning that His ways aren’t like ours and even when it does not make sense, there’s still a solid plan. In the end, it is about knowing He’s got us no matter what.

But it is so hard.

It could feel like that but even though it takes a lot of patience, it is worth it.

Ha! There it was…the one thing I needed to stop at and understand. “It takes patience but it is worth it.” My mind came back to my dealings with sugar and the challenge it has been getting over it. I sat at my desk wondering what skills have I had learnt from this walk to ensure that I deal with this sugar thing decisively.

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What had I forgotten in the process that would be the key to overcoming this challenge? It had to be thinking not ordinary aimless thinking but deep and focused often described as meditation. Choosing to be immersed in the truth of the situation and finding the root of the challenge. Thinking is the key to getting out of this space and I have lots of questions.

• How much sugar do I actually eat? This is in all its forms including cookies, biscuits, cake, fruit, chocolate, drinking chocolate, sugar in coffee…everything
• How often do I take something with sugar? It takes a little tracking including photos to understand the frequency and portion size of the same.
• How much is my limit? We have to determine what the maximum intake is and stick with it.
• How do I get to and stay below my limit? This is the big one. It takes effort and commitment and it has to be consistent.

I am a work in progress!