You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength. Deuteronomy 6:5 (NKJV)
Let’s stop there because I am stuck at the word ALL. All means everything, the whole quantity, completely. It sounded and in some respects still sounds so crazy because it comes to me that when I love God with ALL it means I have nothing left to love another. Think about it, there is nothing left for any other even if I have family, husband and children.
Stop….take a deep breathe…wait…ok continue
There is a bigger reality that when I love Him with ALL, He becomes all I need therefore I can do with less and less from people till He is all I need. Once that is settled, He teaches me to give everyone exactly what they need from me and provides what exactly what I need from them.
Sounds insane right? That was my thought when I began processing it bite by bite
The more I thought about it, I have realised that this is the truth of a walk with Him. To walk with God is to be fully yielded and dependant on Him no matter what is happening or not happening. It means I am certain that He is working on it and working it out and I can lean in knowing that I am covered. It may be a bit hard at the beginning but when He starts dealing with me and all my emotions, thoughts, feelings and demands I learn He is reliable I can make better progress. This change of heart means that I become more like Him so that my life is grounded and balanced regardless of what is going on around.
I am in a good place as He pushes me to deal with my insecurities because then I learn His heart, His voice, His love and then become unmovable. When stuff hits the fan, I won’t fight with people but rather will go back to the conversations and confirmations I have with Papa God, remind Him of His promises, stand on His word and ask for strength and viola…it is done. I will also remind myself that He is who He says He is and I have to trust and believe His word no matter what.
I choose to stay the course, it is worth it.