One day it was fun and the next it wasn’t
One day I loved my work and the next I didn’t
One day we were close and the next we weren’t
One day I was happy and the next I wasn’t
—
Ok, so let’s be real and say that isn’t true
We all know that we lose interest in things over time
Times and seasons change and we don’t keep track
Then one day it no longer makes sense
—
So to be honest it took time to change
Three years to lose interest in my work
Four years to lose that deep connection
Eight years to completely lose the joy
—
It took repeated losses and struggles to give up
Regular arguments and avoidance to lose touch
Immeasurable disappointment to see you didn’t care
Intense sadness and struggle to lose my joy
—
It took inexplicable loneliness for the tears to fall
Indescribable sadness to accept you were gone
Great losses and down time to shut the business
Untold shame to give up totally
—
Yet He wouldn’t let me stay down
He wouldn’t let me wallow too long
He wouldn’t move on without me
He stopped the world to get me up
—
He sat beside me as I called Him names
He sent His children to wipe my tears
He dragged me along when I refused to walk
He breathed on me so I could sing
—
I kicked Him more times than I could say
I called Him names I wouldn’t call another soul
I screamed at Him for being fake
Yet He wouldn’t smite me even when provoked
—
Why would You care for a girl like me?
Why bother to lift me up?
Why forgive the madness I had done?
Why stand beside me till I got up?
—
What do you know about my life?
What do you have planned for me to become?
What must I do for You in this life?
What does Your mind have in store for me?
—
Will You show me the full picture?
Will You tell me the full story?
Will You open the doors in advance?
Will You push until it’s done?
—
I cannot do this without you Papa
I am but a child in this walk together
So come alongside and show the way
If I will every become all You see in me
#NoExcuses #NoLimitations #TellOurStories #Shifting