Monthly Archives: August 2019

My One True Love

Some days the words are many

Some days I can barely get a breath out

Some days I sit there for long

Some days I can barely keep my eyes open


Some days you are clear as crystal

Some days I hear nothing

Some days it all make sense

Some days it is downright cloudy


Some days I am certain of the path

Some days I am scared out of my wits

Some days the sea is calm

Some days the waves crush all around me


Some days are bright and sunny

Some days are dark as night

Some days are clear and fine

Some are cloudy and sad


Yet You remain true

Yet You remain present

Yet You remain real

Yet You remain God


I stand on Your word

I stand on Your hope

I stand on Your promise

I stand on You and You alone


You are mine

You are my God

You are my Kind

My one true love

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Immortal Invisible

We sung more hymns in three days than I have sung in five years. It was amazing!!!

Many charismatic congregations have walked away from hymns because they are old and regarded as boring and these congregations are more connected to the modern music. Even with all this said, it must be understood that there is so much value, depth and heart in the hymns. The young King in my house doesn’t understand them either and asks so many questions about them with his eyebrows lifted.

The hymns were often written from very personal struggles that could have broken any man. The writers found strength and joy in knowing that He who called them was faithful and would always lead them to victory. The depth of the words makes me think that the writers didn’t care that they would perish because that was the gateway to His presence and it was their end goal anyway.

One song that really blessed my heart is the hymn Immortal, Invisible, God only Wise


Immortal, invisible, God only wise,
In light inaccessible hid from our eyes,
Most blessed, most glorious, the Ancient of Days,
Almighty, victorious, Thy great name we praise.

Unresting, unhasting, and silent as light,
Nor wanting, nor wasting, Thou rulest in might;
Thy justice like mountains high soaring above
Thy clouds which are fountains of goodness and love.

To all life Thou givest, to both great and small;
In all life Thou livest, the true life of all;
We blossom and flourish as leaves on the tree,
And wither and perish, but nought changeth Thee.

Great Father of Glory, pure Father of Light
Thine angels adore Thee, all veiling their sight;
All laud we would render, O help us to see:
’Tis only the splendour of light hideth Thee.

Immortal, invisible, God only wise,
In light inaccessible hid from our eyes,
Most blessed, most glorious, the Ancient of Days,
Almighty, victorious, Thy great name we praise.

Walter Chalmers Smith – 1867

This description of God in all His majesty and glory gives such great perspective. It shows Him as all-knowing and able and reliable like none other. When we sang this one, I couldn’t help but raise my hands in surrender to one who is more than me who has for eons gone by been the same reliable one. I rest in the knowledge that I am safe when I am connected to Him and His plan for my life.

I Will Walk With You

I will walk with you, in the dark of night

I will walk with you, in the sunshine

I will walk with you, in the rain

I will walk with you.


I will walk with you, even when you don’t see me

I will walk with you, when you cannot see

I will walk with you, in the wind

I will walk with you.


I will walk with you, through the tears

I will walk with you, through the pain

I will walk with you, through the loneliness

I will walk with you.


I will walk with you, without shame

I will walk with you, without judgement

I will walk with you, without

I will walk with you.


I will walk with you, when solitary

I will walk with you, in the family

I will walk with you, in the nation

I will walk with you.


I will walk with you, because I love you

I will walk with you, because I believe in you

I will walk with you, because I have a plan for you

I will walk with you.


I will walk with you, and watch over you

I will walk with you, and guide you in truth

I will walk with you, and shine my light

I will walk with you.

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Come my child, tell me what ails you.

For once I didn’t have to sugar-coat anything. I didn’t have to say something I didn’t mean. I didn’t have to hide the sadness and fear in my heart. I laid my head on my Father’s chest and cried my heart out. It had been years since I let go like this. It was even longer since I trusted anyone with the full truth of me. It had been the one thing I longed to do but knew no one who would take me fully as I was.

It was the very first time I had been honest with God without fear of retaliation. Yes, I said retaliation.

I always knew He was a just God, a consuming fire, a righteous judge, the King, the Lord, the One who couldn’t stand sin so how could I ever tell Him my sinful truth. If I told Him wouldn’t He just judge me and cast me aside as His people were so fond of doing? Wouldn’t He just walk away in dismay because I hadn’t met the bar? Wouldn’t it just be a repeat of the life I had always lived?

Yet this time I couldn’t help it and I didn’t care.

I poured out my heart to Him bawling like a baby. I laid bare every thought I had hidden, every fear I had harboured, all the anger and frustration that had blinded me, the loneliness and sadness that crippled me, the regret that bound me, the anger that fuelled my behaviour, the sense of entitlement to His miracles, the weight that engulfed my soul and threatened to sink me like a milling stone around my neck in a pool of water.

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I laid it all down about the anger of how He had left me alone and forgotten me leaving me to suffer unwarranted pain and loss; the fear that my life was a failure, a lost cause, a cess pit never to be recovered or redeemed; the frustration of living according to the rules and finding nothing but emptiness. I cried for the lost hope, dreams, faith, grace, joy; I cried for my broken heart and spirit, I cried for the loss of my life as I knew it. I cried until I had nothing left within me but silent tears falling from my eyes and then fell into an exhausted sleep.

HE changed it all.

He cried with me, He held me close and in my sleep I felt my heart begin to heal and my spirit begin to calm. The tears ceased, the brokenness and loneliness faded, the anger subsided, the peace I could not understand descended.  

I didn’t know much, but I knew Papa loves me!!! That was enough

Will You Walk With Me?

Can today be the day something happens to my life?

Can today be the day the proof of you comes?

Can today be the day I know you for sure?

Will you walk with me?


If there is any faithfulness in me for you,

If there is a sacrifice I have made,

If there is a memorial of You in me…

Will you walk with me?


Could You today draw me into You?

Could You today trigger my love for You?

Could You today visit in power?

Could You today come and rest on me?

Will you walk with me?


Is it possible to escape the corruption?

Is it possible the incorruptible may be found in me?

Is it possible I am truly Yours and You are mine?

Will you walk with me?


Will you walk with me and make me whole?

Will you walk with me and strengthen my feet?

Will you walk with me and deepen my love?

Will you walk with me?


In my Sister’s Words

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Will You Stand?

Do you remember when Moses went up the mountain to get the laws from God? He was up there for a looooooonnnnnggg time until the children of Israel got impatient and pestered Aaron to make them an god to worship. How did they move from this God who came to their rescue with signs and wonders to asking for an idol? How did Aaron even entertain their madness when he knew God or so I though? Aaron was convinced by the people that Moses wasn’t coming back soon and he took the gold the people had and fashioned it with an engraving tool, and made a moulded calf. (Gen 32:4).

They were so happy that the set up a festival to worship this idol they had seen cast from the hand of man as god. It didn’t even make sense to me that after all the miracle they had just seen including the parting of the Red sea and water from the rock, they still gave up on Moses and God so fast. Notwithstanding that, Aaron has my focus right now. It doesn’t surprise me that the people hadn’t caught on how great God was but it surprised me that Aaron had missed out so much.

He was sent to Moses as a helper when Moses wasn’t able to speak. He was by Moses side when all the miracles were done. He literally had a front row seat to the hand of God. It is also likely that he did a commendable job for a while but alas, he didn’t keep on track to the end. How could it be that one who walked so close to the man of God didn’t even know the truth of this God? How did he think a lie would get past God and his servant Moses?

Aaron must have thought God was an idiot to even articulate the situation that way or he didn’t really understand the magnitude of this all knowing God who had seen his intention from the start. Walking alongside Moses hadn’t connected Aaron with God. It hadn’t convinced him of God’s power and majesty. It didn’t even set him up for consistent relationship with God. It didn’t give him a personal grounding.

Am I like Aaron? Are you? Have I been around faith and people of faith for long yet never developed a faith all my own? What would happen if my pillars were unavailable would I be able to stand? What if I moved away from my network, would my faith still be solid or would it falter?

We have been around the faith or people of faith and on the surface we look deep with God but when push comes to shove; there is nothing there. How many of us wait for the leaders to seek God and tell us what He is saying like the Israelites? We keep going to the pastor, bishop, life group leader, mother, father etc. for prayer and advice but could it be that we are doing ourselves a disservice? We give people power that isn’t theirs.

Christ calls us to come close and build relationship with Him without human intermediaries. He expects us to come for ourselves and build a deep connection that will outlive all challenges and blessings. He wants to know us, love us, heal us, lead us, grow us and be our all. He needs us to understand that He is in al, sees all, knows all…He is everything if we allow Him to be.

Draw near and HE will draw near to you. I am on the way in…hope you will join me.

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I Asked God…

Is it possible for man to love You?

Is it possible that the only thing that flows out a man is Gods love?

Can I be an epitome of Your love?

Can I love You till nothing else matters?

Is it possible for humanity to experience this?

His love suffers long 

His love is kind;

His love does not envy;

His love does not parade itself,

His love is not puffed up; 

His love does not behave rudely, 

His love does not seek its own,

His love is not provoked,

His love thinks no evil;

His love does not rejoice in iniquity,

His love rejoices in the truth; 

His love bears all things,

His love believes all things,

His love hopes all things,

His love endures all things.

His love never fails

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In my sister’s words