Monthly Archives: September 2019

Heal Child of God

Nobody’s perfect or impervious to life’s lessons.

I hope the new journey you’re on helps bring more stuff to light so you can deal with them conclusively.

I’m sure it’s tough being in places you’ve never been before, new discoveries, pain, broken moments, weakness, etc.

Heal child of God, heal!

The strength you SEEK is only found in our Father.

You lean on Him for instructions and direction on all manner of things.

Let this season be one of those He helps you through.

Stand strong and mention each area one by one and watch Him work.

He is enough, He is able, He is true

You can count on Him, you really can

You are beloved so draw near in confidence

Grow in faith, hope and love

Hold onto His Hope and arise

Nope just another human.

I wasn’t better than any of them
I had fallen, I was covered in shame
I had brought disgrace to Papa
I had faltered before
But He said
Nope you’re just another human on the journey of life.

I was seething with anger
Angry beyond comprehension
Disappointed out of my eyeballs
Demanding another’s punishment
But He said
Nope they’re just another human on the journey of life.

He reminded me of His unfailing love
He reminded me how He forgives me
He recalled my past madness
He uncovered my new heart
He said
Nope you’re just another human on the journey of life.

She smiled happy that I helped
Astounded that I saw her
Feeling indebted to me
Grateful beyond words
I said
Nope I’m just another human on the journey of life.

He smiled sheepishly
Knowing he was covered
Never to be exposed again
Grateful beyond words
I said
Nope I’m just another human on the journey of life.

She looked at me expecting it
Looking into my eyes
Fully expecting judgement
Scared out of her mind
I said
Nope I’m just another human on the journey of life.

He saw me watching him
Staring like a brazen idiot
Seeing him in all his glory and shame
Fully expecting to be shunned
I said
Nope I’m just another human on the journey of life.

I am a product of His love
I am the result of His forgiveness
I am the proof of His grace
I am the the evidence is His hope
I say
I am His beloved, His joy, His desired outcome

He still surprises me every day.

We sat together and talked for a long time and it wasn’t what I expected. I don’t even know why I still think our conversations will be anything but extraordinary. I should know better by now but He still surprises me every day.

Oh don’t get me wrong, it was deep and engaging as usual but the content…nothing of the usual stuff. We were discussing life…all of it as everyone says the good and the seemingly not so good. I was surprised how much adjustment my perspectives still need. You know that place when you feel you are growing and then realise there is still room to grow all the time? That is the place I found.

You see, I was mulling about the reality that so many have died, struggled, suffered, lost jobs, business etc. then it swings the other way to all those who have been winning, succeeding, expanding, growing or thriving this year and to many it feels like this is more than we can handle. Every time I hear of one or the other swings, I would stop and wonder, mull over matters and try to find solutions. My mind would build scenarios of reasons and lessons yet every time I asked why He was silent.

It was confusing and disconcerting for a while, yet scripture would remind me to, ‘16 Rejoice always, 17 pray without ceasing, 18 in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you’ 1 Thes 5:16-18.

My mind remained here for a while. There was so much to unpack that would help me find lasting balance and clarity. This is what I understood:

  1. Rejoice always: let nothing stand in place of your joy, be sure that everything is seen through the eyes of gladness from the heart and mind of God. Rejoice is deeper than be happy, it is about deep joy and great delight. It connects with pleasure, gladness, delight, elation, jubilation, euphoria, rapture, celebration, festivity, exultation, among others. It is a steady state that isn’t affected by the state of affairs of life around us.
  2. Pray without ceasing: this is a call to be anchored in consistent, deep communion and conversation with God. It is the call to live life breath by breath with and in God, never losing sight of Him, never in doubt of His good plan, never wondering if we are in the right place because we have clearly heard and obeyed His word. It is to be still and listen to His response and ideas before we speak and to be aware that His word is supreme and He never fails to answer.
  3. In everything give thanks: gratitude. Wow! To be thankful for everything; to be thankful that every situation is an opportunity to learn. To be thankful that nothing is a mistake; to be thankful as a route to rejoicing.
  4. For this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you: our Father desires that we walk in His plan because it is the only sure thing in life. His plan isn’t about keeping us happy rather it is about giving us the opportunity to showcase Him with every breath and to bring peace and change to the world around us. It is important to understand that His plan for us leads us to the end line He has predetermined that will bring us all the success and grace we need.

In some ways this is easier said than done but from our conversation I realised that the real win is in the permanent and irreversible shift to a place of absolute faith and trust in God that all things will indeed work out for good and produce His plan and purpose to His honour and glory. Even the apostles didn’t have it easy but they were sure to count it all joy when they fell into various trials, knowing that their faith produced patience and once patience had its perfect work, they would be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

No matter how hard it may be…I will stand and be counted for His glory.

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 ‘…count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces [a]patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be [b]perfect and complete, lacking nothing. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways. James 1:2-8

We Lay It Down

We lay it down

We lay it down

We lay it down

We lay it down


We lay down the fear

For it as bound us

It has chained us

We lay it down


We lay down the fear of looking foolish when we trust you

We lay down the fear of losing control when you are leading

We lay down the fear of walking in absolute faith

We lay it down.


We lay down the fear of growing old

We lay down the fear of being past due for your promise

We lay down the fear of waiting on your timing

We lay it down.


We lay down the fear of missing out when you say come

We lay down the fear of missing out as we watch other rise

We lay down the fear of not being picked by our peers

We lay it down


We lay down the fear of failure

We lay down the fear of loss

We lay down the fear of not knowing

We lay it down


We lay down the fear of not having children

We lay down the fear of barrenness

We lay down the fear of loneliness

We lay it down


We lay down the fear of broken relationships

We lay down the fear of heartache

We lay down the fear of sadness

We lay it down


We lay down

We lay it down

We lay it down

We lay it down


We lay down the fear because fear is not of you

We lay down the fear because it will distract us

We lay down the fear because it blocks your word

We lay it down


We lay down the fear because it achieves nothing

We lay down the fear because nothing comes from it

We lay down the fear because it is not of you

We lay it down


We lay down the fear because your word is supreme

We lay down the fear because you are not a man to lie

We lay down the fear because your promises are yeah and amen

We lay it down


We lay down the fear because you are trustworthy

We lay down the fear because you are the overcomer

We lay down the fear because you are true

We lay it down


We lay down

We lay it down

We lay it down

We lay it down

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Storge…Love Unlike Anything Else

I have heard many messages about love over the years but recently…wow…I heard something good. The Greek language has five different words to cater for the different kinds of love yet the English language has only one. No wonder it often seems that the word love has been misused and over used. The five words are:

  1. Storge – familial love
  2. Phileo – friendship
  3. Eros – excessive self-love (narcissism), romance, sexual
  4. Epithumia – physical attraction
  5. Agape – God’s unconditional love

The one that has remained with me is Storge. This is the most basic form of love but many of us don’t even understand it. It is a comfortable, relaxed, natural relationship love that gives a sense of belonging and develops loyalty.  It is the source of emotional stability because it gives a steady inner love fullness and complete comfort. It is so simple, uncomplicated and so unspectacular that many ignore it. It creates common values and purpose to meet shared needs. It is driven by a deep sense of mutuality and oneness like nothing else.

It caught my attention because I understood many things in a blink.

This is the kind of love we should receive in our home and families and is the reality of who we are. We are a reflection of the family we grew up in and the marriage our parents had. As I have reflected on my understanding of storge, I remember listening to conversations among the older generation this last week. I remember I kept hearing undertones about how they were raised and I could see a lot of it in how they raised us. Some of them had really hard lives while other had simpler lives. Each one has turned out different because of their interactions. Anyway I digress.

In an instant I could see how I became who I am and the changes that have been points of healing for me. I could see what I lacked growing up and how God made up for it through relationships I have now that are family and strength. I found how he gave me a heart for giving regardless of whether I get anything back because He provided ways to refill my tank even in very dry seasons and places.

God in His wisdom knew that I would need some compensating and He put in the right compensatory measures in place before I even knew I needed it. I remember the time I was dealing with inner insecurities that no one could see and one conversation with Papa C was all I needed to get my focus right. It was an assurance of unchanging love in a dimension I could never really explain. I had just barred my soul with all my shenanigans, and they were baaadddd, and I was scare that he would be disappointed and wouldn’t want to call me his own (yeah, they were that bad). His comment were simple, ‘If that is what you think you don’t know God and definitely don’t know me.’

Was he excusing my madness? No! He was making it clear that he didn’t like what I had done but his love for me as his little girl was unchanged. He made sure I was growing and dealing and changing so thoroughly that I wouldn’t go back to that madness but the madness didn’t make him shun me as many would have or even love me less. Talking about it took away the power of the madness and enabled me to be accountable and overcome.

In that moment, I know I was accepted as I am and I don’t have to spend time being like or competing with others for his attention. I realised that my sisters and b

I finally understood….

“Life ceases to be a competition when are loved.’

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Is Your Grace Really Sufficient?

The sun was setting

The day was ending

The breeze was blowing

Something was shifting


It had been a long journey

It was a hard going

It was lonely

Something was shifting


Her heart was set on you

Her hope was in your healing

Her focus was finding your joy

Yet something was shifting


There was a whisper in the air

There was a shift in the breeze

There was dip in the sunlight

She shifted into eternity


The word came and took our breath away

The word came and threw us for a loop

The word came and everything changed

Indeed it had shifted


It felt like a punch in a gut

It felt like you went on holiday

It felt like you have forgotten us

It felt like you left all of us alone


It feels like You have forgotten them

If feels like You have looked away

It feels like You went away and forgot

It feels like You left them alone


Yet you say TRUST

And you say BELIEVE

Then you say Hold onto hope

Even with the shifting


This one needs You

No one else but You

Nothing else but You

The hope and grace in the shifting


Help us believe

Heal our hearts

Let us see you

We need your grace


From the hearts of WASH daughters

I Asked

I asked You to heal them

You asked; what if I don’t?

I asked for a new item

You asked; what if it’s not time?


I asked for more

You asked; do you really need more?

I asked for a child

You asked; what if you don’t need one?


I asked for a car,

You asked; why do you need one?

I asked for a house,

You asked; why do you need one?


I asked for new friends

You asked; do you really need them?

I asked for a new position

You asked; how will you use it for me?


You have me baffled Papa

Every time I ask for something

You counter it all with a strange question

Have I missed something?


What do I need to understand?

What do I need to see?

What gaps do I have in my views?

Are my expectations on track?


What is on Your heart for me?

Who do You see me become?

Where do You see me standing?

How will I influence the world for you?


I know You are a loving father

I know You are a just God

I know You are interested in my good

I know You are love personified


I know You are all wise

I know You are able

I know You are teaching me

I know Your plan is good


Help me understand the path

Clear my thinking to rise to Yours

Open my inner eyes to see

Open my inner ears to hear


Teach me to number my days

Teach me to number my thoughts

Teach me to number my emotions

Teach me to number my words


Teach me to walk in Your liberty

Teach me to trust in Your plan

Teach me to be devoted in spite of it all

Teach me to love as You do.

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Beautifully Broken

Gracefully Broken!

I was in Dollar Tree last night and there was a lady and two kids behind me in the LONG line. One was a big kid, one was a toddler. The bigger one had a pack of glow sticks and the baby was screaming for them so the Mom opened the pack and gave him one; which stopped his tears. He walked around with it smiling, but then the bigger boy took it and the baby started screaming again.

Just as the Mom was about to fuss at the older child, he bent the glow sticks and handed it back to the baby. As we walked outside at the same time, the baby noticed that the stick was now glowing and his brother said “I had to break it so you could get the full effect from it.” I almost ran because l could hear God saying to me, “I had to break you to show you why I created you. You had to go through it so you could fulfill your purpose.”

That little baby was happy just swinging that “unbroken” glow stick around in the air because he didn’t understand what it was created to do which was “glow”. 

There are some people who will be content just “being” but some of us that God has chosen, we have to be “broken”. We have to get sick. We have to lose a job. We go through divorce. We have to bury our spouse, parents, best friend, or our child because, in those moments of desperation, God is breaking us but when the breaking is done, then we will be able to see the reason for which we were created. 

So when you see us glowing just know that we have been broken but healed by his Grace and Mercy!!! 

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Only yesterday I was thinking about how God needed a widow to save Elijah and He only found the right one in Zarephath, Sidon. She is called a widow so it is clear she had a husband at a point. She lost on one end and gained on the other. It stunned me the number of times I challenged God’s knowledge and fairness because the process or the outcome wasn’t what I wanted. I know it is madness to even contemplate challenging God yet at that point I didn’t see any other way to get answers.

It took a while to understand the truth of Romans 8:28 “…And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose…” but in time I did.

Nothing is wasted, no experience in life is for nothing; there is a plan and purpose if I take the time to understand the bigger picture. Looking back, I now know that my life has been moving along a perfect trajectory to get me to where I am today that I can be relevant to the situation of someone reading this page.

I didn’t always like the process. I didn’t always see the light. I didn’t always choose the right path. I didn’t always want to listen to the people around or respond to the questions asked. I didn’t even believe that I could make the needed change and I had to find ways to be happy even when God wasn’t interested in my happiness; at least I thought He wasn’t interested.

It all changed when I really listened to some conversations. I heard stories of suffering that brought joy. I heard stories of people willing to lay down their lives for others to rise and become something. I learnt of lonely places, desolate spaces, dark paths that brought forth people of depth, clear intent and purpose. I learnt of sunrises some hated and sunsets that were welcomed with open arms. I learnt of people who couldn’t change for anyone and didn’t care if this would affect others.

I found broken people like me who had found healing and renewal going on to become greater than they could be in the past. These broken people changed when they came across the compensatory actions God has in place for us in our walk. I learnt that I too could be loved unconditionally and it changed my path.

It became clear…

1       The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
    He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters,
    He refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for His name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely Your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalms 23

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