How do I explain it?

Where do I start?

Will it make sense?

Can I articulate it?

Oh my heart needs rest.

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All the same I will try

I never back down

I learnt to share

I learnt to care openly

Oh my heart needs rest

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I loved him too much

I held him too close

I hang on like he was my life

I refused to open my fist

Oh my heart needs rest

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I went above and beyond

I arrived early and stayed late

I gave the gift of my heart

I held nothing back

Oh my heart needs rest

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He never really saw me

He behaved like I was not important

He said I was expendable

He sneered at my intensity

Oh my heart needs rest

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My heart yearns for his closeness

My mind struggles to understand

My joy is a thing of the past

My hope has to be rebuilt

Oh my heart needs rest

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I gave more than I should have

I ignored the sense to hold back

I was so desperate for attention

I lowered my standards

Oh my heart needs rest

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Paps warned me not to

He said he got me but I ignored

He said he had a special match for me

He said I could trust Him

Oh my heart wouldn’t listen

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Papa knew the coming pain

He tried to steer me away

He called and I ignored

He cried and I walked away

Oh my heart wouldn’t listen

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Now my heart is in bits

And I am calling out in tears

I long for the sense of belonging

I long for another like me

Oh my heart needs rest

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My heart needs rest to heal

My heart needs quiet places

My heart needs stillness

My heart needs intimacy

Oh my heart needs rest

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My heart needs a partner

My heart needs team players

My heart needs it’s people

My heart needs a delicate touch

Oh my heart needs rest

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Rest is in the arms of Papa

Rest is a state of mind

Rest is based on instruction

Rest is new to me

Oh my heart needs rest

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Yet I choose rest

I choose to stop and grow

I choose to lean into Papa

I choose to heal

Oh my heart needs rest

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