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About kyesubire

A life poured out: A daughter from the pool of the blessed working diligently to live according to her Father's plan. Mother, wife, sister, friend, daughter, mentor, example... leaving a lasting legacy of love, kindness and warmth.

Push through even when it hurts.


One morning I sensed to add a jog to my workout. I used to be a cross country runner until my chest and knees begun to trouble me. I remembered the pain that stopped me in my tracks and now I was to add it to the weekly workout. How? Why would I do that? Yet this urgency to add running to the plan grew every day. It became clear that I had to add it urgently.

I had to conquer my fear…once and for all

Kyesubire Greigg

The first few days I almost cried. I really struggled the first day but it became clear that I had to believe it that I could do it and then walk by faith. It was so hard to keep going. I focused on 100 steps running and 100 steps walking then when there was a semblance of rhythm, it grew to 3 minutes jogging and 5 minutes walking to 500 meters and so on. The thing I had to get past every time was the invisible barrier of my personal limits and every time I crossed the strain barrier something within me broke and changed.

A few days later, as I reached that invisible barrier at 6000 steps, my body screamed to stop but my mind refused. I acknowledged that I was tired but I understood I could and indeed must overcome this barrier. I had to face the strain in my body then make the choice to do different, go further, keep moving. I spoke to my mind and said, “you can do this chica…you can do this. Just take another step.” As I spoke to myself, the barrier broke and my feet moved, I spoke again, and I moved and so I kept speaking until my whole body moved with greater ease.  Suddenly, the revelation of pushing through hit me.

All things are possible for those who believe.

Mark 9:23

Then my Father asked, “Do you realise this is how you must live from now on?”

“How?”

“Pushing past the barriers in your heart and mind to connect with the WORD I have spoken over you and to you then work to keep rising and walking in absolute faith that all things are possible when you believe.

Finally I saw it…my new pattern. I would focus on acknowledging where I am, pushing through, refusing to be cowed, acknowledging that things won’t always be easy, but they will always be possible. I realised that the pain in my system was a way to recognise what stopped me before or could stop me now. I must choose to unpack it and chart a course of action for growth and success. Oh, don’t think that I would allow my body to be injured aimlessly, No!!! Rather, I would assess the pain and if it is strain and growth pains, I will push past. If medical pain, I would get the needed attention. However, nothing would stand in the way of my growth anymore because I have no shame of who I am or of my path.

I remind myself daily that no matter the route or the temperature, I will go out daily and train my body first then come in and train my mind. I will be vigilant about my habits so that I only retain those that create room for deep thinking, mediation, questions, connections and growth. I will evaluate my connections and retain those that allow me to grow and let go of those that drain life from me. I can select who comes with me on my way to an outstanding life.

I am no longer tied to places and people who want me to stagnate because that is the onset of death. When my two fitness friends challenged me to up the ante and add running, my mind said no and many people in my circle believed my stories that it is a lost opportunity since I was injured. These two brothers refused to accept my limitations and that opened me up to revelation that has changed my path completely.

Watch who you talk to, spend time with and consult because you become a sum total of them. Choose the right option and thrive

Check the State of Your Heart


My little children,

these things I write to you,

so that you may not sin.

And if anyone sins,

we have an Advocate with the Father,

Jesus Christ the righteous.

And He Himself

is the propitiation for our sins,

and not for ours only

but also for the whole world.

Brethren,

I write no new commandment to you,

but an old commandment

which you have had from the beginning.

The old commandment is the word

which you heard from the beginning.

Again,

a new commandment I write to you,

which thing is true in Him and in you,

because the darkness is passing away,

and the true light is already shining.

He who says he is in the light,

and hates his brother,

is in darkness until now.

He who loves his brother

abides in the light,

and there is no cause for stumbling in him.

But he who hates his brother

is in darkness and walks in darkness,

and does not know where he is going,

because the darkness has blinded his eyes.

I John 2:1‭-‬2‭, ‬7‭-‬11 NKJV

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No Longer Ashamed of My Path.


There are days you read something and it says what you want to say. I have learnt to use other people’s words when they are available and are clearer that what is circulating in my mind. Today is one of those days.

I am reposting the writings of a dear sister Esther that speaks as clearly and loud as a vuvuzela on “Self-love”.


This is going to be a vulnerable moment post…rather left field for me but here goes… 🙂

A little while ago, I was thinking about the command, “Love your neighbor as you love yourself”. And I wondered, how do I love myself? You see there are parts of me that I don’t like or don’t accept. Is that love? There are things I wish I could shift, donate or cut away. Is that love? Its always been so easy for me to give love, much easier than it has been for me to receive love. There are many reasons but it does come down to the fact that at some level I have felt unworthy of love, not good enough. So…in that space, with that mindset how could I love myself or my neighbour as Christ intended.

You see, I have to love me first. I have to look at me, and see me as Christ does. Whole. Worthy. Chosen. Beautiful. Amazing. His handiwork. Foreknown and loved from before the beginning of time.

I have to look at me, and see me as Christ does.

Esther Wanjiku

Over the last few months, I think I’ve taken more pictures of myself than I have over the last 43 years. You could say I fell in love with me. I realised that I am His Handiwork and He looked at me and said “Es is good.” Why would I not love what my Father has said is good? And this isn’t pride, it’s coming to a place of acceptance and seeing that I have never been less than. It’s the beginning of an understanding of the gift of His love and His Grace and His Mercy.

When you do love yourself, you view the world and your neighbours with different lenses. When you let God deal with your insecurities then you view the world without rose coloured glasses. You then allow Him to show you how to truly love your neighbour.

I am still on this journey. I haven’t attained perfection, far from it. But I am no longer ashamed of my path. It’s the path and process that He has set out for me and it is good.

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

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Pray Today


Pray that your eyes may see God

Pray that your ears may know His voice

Pray that your heart may be connected to his

Pray that your mind will be the mind of Christ

Pray that your will be subjected to His

Pray that your mind will be renewed

Pray that your inner man will be strengthened

Pray that your joy will be found in Him

Pray that He hides you under His wings

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Pray for insight

Pray for salvation

Pray for knowledge

Pray for understanding

Pray for discernment

Pray for revelation

Pray for indescribably peace

Pray for firm hope

Pray for unwavering faith

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Pray for unshakable belief

Pray for unconditional love

Pray for all sufficient grace

Pray for the right companions

Pray for the right connections

Pray for the right understanding

Pray for favour,

Pray for success,

Pray for victory,

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Pray for deliverance,

Pray for healing,

Pray for breakthrough,

Pray for the help of the Holy Spirit,

Pray that God will guide you,

Pray that God will intervene in your work,

Pray that God would bless the work of your hands

Pray that God will use you as the vessel

Pray without EVER ceasing

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Get comfortable with failure.


In the past, failure was an abomination. I remember all the warnings we got about failing and the demand that we never do so. Growing up, we would be beaten or questioned when we fail. We were always told that if we fail in school or life, we could end up on the street like the street child or worse the local drunk. Some communities went as far as ridiculing people who failed and used them as examples in stories.

This attitude created a very intense personal drive to grow, stay afloat and rise into places of dominance but it also created a culture of hiding struggles at all costs. It created a generation who would rather show strength even when they are struggling and could barely stand than acknowledge something as going on. It made people despise asking for help and seeking counsel to handle the challenges of life.

Fast forward thirty years and the conversation changes…

Failure is still defined as the inability to do something or rise above a challenge. The change came in the value of failure. It all started with conversations about the value of failure, the lessons we can learn from failure and the strength it can give us. Imagine the response from those of us who were oriented to believe failure is bad…it was so confusing.

I must admit that I struggled with this change in definition. It seemed too out there to be true. How could failure be a blessing? How could it be helpful? How can I gain from it? I grappled with it for a long time, turning it over and over, until it made sense and I tried to deal with it.

It took a series of failures for me to understand its value.

The tipping point was failing in a series of businesses then in relationships. Every aspect in my neatly ordered life was affected by these failures. I could choose to remain stuck or walk through the pain. Who would help me? Who would hold me to account? Would I be able to find the strength to deal? I sought the help of a counsellor and shared the journey with my accountability partners.

This walk through some of the most trying times taught me to love failure.

Failure is the best classroom: school is a place we discover what we know and what we need to learn, and failure is just that. We can choose to complain about the things that didn’t work or identify them, understand the mitigating factors, find ways to deal with the challenges and catalogue the lessons so we don’t need to go back and others can learn from our lives.

Failure is a temperature gauge: You know the new thermal detectors we have at mall entrances? That is my image of failure. It is a warning system that indicates times of reflection, review, and recalibration. If temperature checks are a constant part of life, any rises are noticed quickly, and the right measures can be deployed in time to avoid total failure. It is important to watch the small failings.

Failure shows us where to grow: Think of the athlete who lost a race. They deal with the emotions, including crying then get back to the drawing board. They never give up, change training tactics, diet, and train diligently for the next race clearly focused on the areas of growth and strengthening the areas of strength.

Failure keeps us humble: The knowledge that I am not invincible keeps me humble and willing to keep learning all my days. My past failures have taught me valuable lessons and deal with ego and holds the simplicity and joy of life and the desire to change the world.

Failure changes our mindset: It will either break us or make us stronger and whichever way it goes, is our personal choice. When we view failure as bad we will avoid it like the plague but if we understand its value, we will accept the failings are tools and use it as such.

We must teach our generations accept failure as a key classroom in life.

We must help them learn the value of failure as an integral part of life. Let’s help them to expect to fail first and fast and learn from each failure. Understand why they failed, catalogue signs missed, and errors made, identify the lessons and learn them, practice, practise, practise. When you anticipate that things won’t always work, you are set to go further because failure loses its power to stall you permanently.

Failure is a great place of learning and can trigger great growth when handled right. Choose your attitude towards failure and either thrive or get stuck. Whatever option you choose will determine how far you will go.

Prayer


Do you have time to pray?

God has all time to listen

He is waiting for your prayers now,

Talk to him

He is your Heavenly Father

Speak to him he is our creator

Talk to him he is our provider,

Approach him he is our refuge,

Connect to him he is our healer,

Lean on him he is our protection,

Rest in him he is our Saviour,

Understand he is our present help in times of trouble.

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Prayers is not complaining,

Prayers is not murmuring,

Prayers are not made without faith or trust.

Stop complaining and start praying

I pray that you receive the grace to pray without ceasing

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Wake up brethren and pray now

Pray in the mighty name of Jesus Christ

Pray and exercise your faith,

Pray believing Jesus Christ hears your prayers and your request,

Pray by faith,

Pray and mention the word of God

Pray and ask,

Pray and seek,

Pray and knock the door of heaven blessings

Pray without ceasing,

Pray pray pray

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Prayers move every mountain that is standing before your success,

Prayer changes situations that are troubling your life,

Prayers can do marvellous 

Prayers is the only language that god hears and answer,

Pray pray pray

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I pray that God restores your prayer life again,

I pray that you become a prayer warrior

I pray you grow strong in the mighty name of Jesus Christ

Arise now and kneel down and pray.

~ Collins Ambani

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Your Voice Matters


When was the last time you shared your life’s journey with someone in need or you shared a lesson, you learnt? Not necessarily the whole story of the mess, but the lesson learnt and how applying that lesson has changed your life.

The season has been very hard for many of us taking us to the brink and even thrown some of us off the cliff. Some of those who haven’t gone over the edge are tethering right there, hanging by a thread that is breaking as we speak. Walking around smiling or at least seeming to smile but broken, shattered to smithereens but keeping on walking as if nothing going on.

Recent conversations have taught me that my journey can help others become more. In some, I was the encourager while in others, I was the encouraged. These conversations didn’t have a set formula rather they evolved from the honesty and vulnerability of the conversation. Some of the questions were so heart rending because they demanded raw honesty that if you weren’t in a space of growth you wouldn’t say anything. The bottom line is, in this season, candid conversations are even more important to keep each one balanced and growing.

Sometimes it was just listening and allowing people to unload the things on their minds in a safe space. Knowing full well that that they are not being judged and will not be judged no matter what and that their stories will not be heard on the streets. Other times it is in sharing the truths learnt, the tears cried, the rants at God and the peace that comes from unloading ones heart. Others it is infusing just the right kind of humour to break the sadness, change the narrative and add life. Finally, there is the deep silence and quiet hangouts that show love, compassion and acceptance.

Sometimes when you have been in a difficult place, you lose connection with your personal worth and value for one reason or another but in a moment of deep conversation you may find that there is value in what you know and what you can say to others. Do not let the struggle you find yourself in dilute your understanding of your value. The path you are on is useful to grow you and then to help others. Your voice when fully developed will change your corner of the world when you allow it to take root.

No matter how insignificant your role, there is a reason it was requested. Your voice is powerful. Use it for good. No experience is insignificant, no voice is valueless. Speak…share the power of your learning. Realise that a lot in your journey can help someone else rise up again, keep walking, hold onto hope, smile again and live free.

You are valuable, share what you learn.

Shalom.

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Becoming


I read this piece and know someone around here needs to read it so here goes…

You are in the perfect place, position, path to grow and BECOME all God said you are and created you to be.

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Me: Hey God.

God: Hello, my love.

Me: I’m falling apart. Can you put me back together?

God: I would rather not.

Me: 🤔

God: Because you are not a puzzle.

Me: What about all of the pieces of my life that are falling down onto the ground?

God: Let them stay there for a while.They fell off for a reason. Take some time and decide if you need any of those pieces back.

Me: You don’t understand! I’m breaking down!

God: No – you don’t understand. You are breaking through. What you are feeling is just growing pains. You are shedding the things and the people in your life that are holding you back. You are not falling apart. You are falling into place. Relax. Take some deep breaths and allow those things you don’t need anymore to fall off of you. Quit holding onto the pieces that don’t fit you anymore. Let them fall off. Let them go.

Me: Once I start doing that, what will be left of me?

God: Only the very best pieces of you.

Me: I’m scared of changing.

God: I keep telling you – YOU ARE NOT CHANGING!! YOU ARE BECOMING!

Me: Becoming who?

God: Becoming who I created you to be! A person of light and love and charity and hope and courage and joy and mercy and grace and compassion. I made you for more than the shallow pieces you have decided adorn yourself with that you cling to with such greed and fear. Let those things fall off of you. I love you! Don’t change! Become! Become! Become! Become who I made you to be. I’m going to keep telling you this until you remember it.

Me: There goes another piece.

God: Yep. Let it be.

Me: So…I’m not broken?

God: No – but you are breaking like the dawn. It’s a new day. Become!! Become!!

#IAM #BECOMING

~ Joanna Wellington ~

4 Keys to an Outstanding Life


There are people who speak and do it for long because they have time and others who are clear about their content and speak shot but clear messages. Recently I listened to Randolph Tindika and it really shifted a few things for me.

First off, it was simple, short and sweet and in the same breath it was extensively deep. As I thought about it, I realised that these are elements we need to share with one another.  

Prepare thoroughly: Do not assume that the journey will be easy or that you will always gave provision. Prepare to carry what you need for the journey yet travel light. Carry only what you need and can carry. My first major continental trip was from Nairobi to Johannesburg by bus. We were travelling for several weeks, and I had carried a wide variety of clothes and needed accessories; a big back pack and two other smaller bags. All was well until we crossed into Zambia and the Botswana and the distance, we had to walk with our bags was long. Suffice it to say, I changed how I packed after that day, focusing on things I could reuse and only what I absolutely needed and could carry myself. The same applies to life. Let go of everything that hinders and travel with a clear focus on where you are going.

Do not fall for the shining stars: along the journey, there will always be things that are attractive enough to take our attention away from the real things. They look pretty and like blessings yet they are simple distractions that will take us in the wrong direction. We must learn to test everything and be sure that what we are focusing on is not just a pretty thing but are the real reward for us.

Sacrifice is the tool of promotion: I keep thinking about David, Daniel and joseph. I think we can also add Esther to this list. They lost almost everything, a word was given but it took a while to manifest. Some really suffered for a very long time and didn’t lose heart of the prize God had set out for them. At the end of the journey, they earned recognition, position and impact like never before. We do things not for the outer recognition but for the realisation that what we are doing and the path we are walking will being us all the way young into to the word of God and the plan as it had been set out. When we let go of the need to have it all and lay our lives down for the plan of God, elevation is the end result. Isn’t that worth more than simple manipulation of the process?

Determine to make the greatest impact: What can your life produce? How many people can you influence? What can God do with your life if you allow him? Our lives are the sum total of our choices and commitment to stay the course. We are destined to leave footprints in the sand for other to follow or trails in uncharted lands for people to follow. How then can we settle to be average and boring? Now can we settle to be the ones who repeat the same tactics over and over expecting different results? We can’t.

Our calling in the name of our Lord and Saviour is to be utterly outstanding and influential in everything we do, but not of ourselves. “Every good and prefect thing comes from above from the lord of love…” He knows the end from the beginning, He has already predetermined our place and the way we interact with life. He is the one who deserves all our energy and focus because “He who begun the good work in us is faithful and just to forgive us and cleans us from all unrighteousness.” There is no excuse as to why we cannot rise into our fullness in the plan of God.

My charge is to know who I am in the presence of God and live that out all the days of my life and behold His greatness and live by it.

Faith is….


Faith is not in nails
The colour
The length
The design
Even as life is complex
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Faith is not in clothes
The length
The design
The fit
Even as decency is key
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Faith is not in my hair
The style
The length
The colour
Even as its my crowning glory
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Faith is not in physique
The muscle tone
The daily workout
The defined shape
Even as health is important
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Faith is not in marriage
The youthful onset
The length of time
The appearance of oneness
Even as the union is useful
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Faith is not in acquisition
The nice ride
The beautiful home
In the plush neighbourhood
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Faith is not in appearance
The perfect colour
The perfect clothes
The perfect partner
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Faith is
The substance of things hoped for
The evidence of things not seen
Small like a mustard seed
A mountain mover
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Faith is
The road map for life
The antidote to poor sight
Trust in the person of God
Surrender to the ways of God
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Faith is
The transformational power of the gospel
The foundation for life
Exceedingly abundantly above all
We could ask, think or imagine
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Faith is
Life, power, strength to keep moving
The reason we hold on to life
The root of lasting transformation
The way to renew our minds

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