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Perfecting My Faith

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. James 1:2-4

God is perfecting my faith through opportunities that come with challenges. I used to think that was strange until I realise that challenges are often the best way to learn things. I found that when I got something easily I often forgot all the lessons shortly thereafter or it took a challenge to remember and actively live out the lesson. However, when the lesson was learnt in the midst of a challenge it remained front and centre and that made me a better person at the end of things.

IMG_20170810_181319Now, my responses to these challenges define the level and strength of my trust in God and His capacity to perfect those things that concern me. The things that concern Him about me are the things He has in His heart for me; the things He created me to do from before the foundations of the earth; His hopes and dreams for me. It is one thing to say that I trust Him but the truth of this trust is shown to me by my responses to His instructions.

In the beginning it was so hard; hard to understand that the challenges around me would really produce good in me; hard to understand how the pain could be helpful; hard to understand because I had these preconceived ideas what it meant to trust God and how He should work for me to prove His love. It was as if a part of me was being cut out without anaesthesia and if I was honest with myself, that part needed to go but it was all I knew.

I had to understand that I needed to persevere and move through the process with faith and grace, to be strong and courageous. This process must be anticipated and enjoyed because it would become part of my life for life. Let me explain. Each day is spent in close communication with God and is full of instructions and insights that I must live out. this means that each day has the capacity to be challenging if I try to bargain with and beg God to give me the breakthrough the way I want it.

I realised that I need to keep going, learn to hear His voice, trust the instruction and be faithful no matter what. I learnt that the breakthroughs wouldn’t come before my faith in Him was at the right place. I also found that that outcome was according to His plan and purpose and not my preconceived ideas. This is where it all became real. For so long I had this list of things I did to get His attention and blessing and even though many of these things were good, they soon became routine and removed the element of actively seeking God and relating with Him.

IMG_20170810_181036I found that my real intention was the things He would give me for keeping the rules and living right. I came to understand that I wouldn’t get very far if I didn’t find another way. So I asked for His help to shift my focus from His works to His heart and mind. I asked that my greater desire would be to know His mind about me and walk in it with confidence no matter what. Here is where school began.

I had to understand that I could never ever expect Him to work identically or give the same instruction and the only way to get here was to learn to fully #Trust God.

  • To Trust God is to rest totally in Him as He is our shelter and reliable help.
  • To trust God is to focus on His word and live it out no matter what.

This was the most interesting part to learn. You see, I had always thought I trusted Him but as we walked this new path, I realised my trust was in His hand. He was good as long as HE gave me certain things or when things worked in my favour  but when things didn’t workout as expected I would get flustered and worked up.

  • Could it be that this process was indeed the path to trust?
  • Could it be that if I just laid hold of the truth of God’s love and presence it would be well?
  • Could it be that trust was found in the process and on the other side of the process?
  • Could it be that there was a way I needed to think and thought patterns I needed to let go of?

So I begun the pursuit of understanding, looking for examples of people who lived their lives through challenges and found depth in God.


I Cannot Fail:

I have heard this statement so many times but only recently did it really come alive for me. Everyone great business person I have read about or listened to says failure is a great teacher, and I agree. It is the place where we test our presuppositions and figure out if they are true or not and adjust our course accordingly. However, there is a dimension of it that I never looked at before.

My father has always said that we cannot fail when our lives are premised on God. There are numerous examples of people in the bible who walked very hard paths but came out victorious in the end. So I begun looking at them; Job, Joseph, David, Esther, Mary and others. One thing stood out for me over and over again, even with difficult times and some big falls, they achieved the plan of God for their lives.

Take David for instance who plotted the murder of a man so he could have the man’s wife. When she was with child he was rebuked and when he repented God relented and he was called a man after God’s own heart.

Mary was pregnant out of wedlock and by all intents should have been stoned yet as Joseph planned to let her go quietly God stepped in and explained things to him and it was done.

Joseph had dreams of grandeur and the more he shares them the deeper the anger from his brothers who eventually toss him into a well and sell him off into slavery. He is accused at every turn of different things and in the end forgotten by those he helped before God sent out the word and he rose to number two in the land.

Daniel was faithful to God and kept his heart on the commandments yet he got thrown into the lions den. God came through and he was unharmed but the same could not said of those who had him thrown in there. The lions made a meal of them in minutes of being thrown in.

So here is what I learnt: every hardship or ‘failure’ is part of the process. The intention of the process is to get me to full dependence on God no matter what. In the eyes of man things in my life could seem like I am failing but as long as I am connected to his ultimate purpose there is nothing like failure. I must be like Zerubbabel governor of Judah and Joshua the high priest who placed full trust in God so that he said to them:

Yet now be strong Zerubbabel says the Lord, and be strong Joshua son of Jehozadak the high priest; and be strong all you people of the land says the Lord, and work for I am with you says the Lord of hosts. According to the word that I covenanted with you when you came out of Egypt so my Spirit remains among you; do not fear!

Haggai 2:4-5.

The premise of the strength and the completion of the assignment is His covenanted word. This word can be relied on and depended upon for generations to come. In Isaiah 55:10 he says;

For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, and do not return here , but water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, So does My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to me void but it shall accomplish what I please and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.

So indeed, if my life and actions are predicated on a clear word of God that I can track then there is absolutely no possibility of failure. Everything that comes my way will produce more of Him and the end result is His version of success. However, if my life is predicated on my own feelings and understanding then you can be sure that even though I may enjoy success for a while, there will be a limit to the success.

Far be it that I spend my days on my own path. I choose to go back to God’s word and live according to it and never fail again my life. Once this is done, every challenge is simply part of the process and will no longer have the capacity to break me.

Today I choose His word over me and walk in it with confidence.

What about you?

The Next Step:

There are times when I want the full picture from God so that I know where I am going and exactly how to get there but He isn’t always that lenient with me. Well, He’s never that lenient with me especially in this season.

The question He keeps asking me is, ‘Do you trust me?’ and I always answer ‘Yes I do.’

2013-04-20 12.36.39However, here is the flip side, if I trusted Him as much as I say I do, would I want all these upfront answers or would I be cool to know He is in control and it is all well? Now here is the big question, ‘Do I really trust Him?’ Indeed it is a big question that I have to answer honestly.

He has had me make a few ‘drastic’ moves off late that look like foolishness to some. They are moves that can only be made based on trust in Him because they have the power to sink me or make me rise into who He says I am in Him. I battled with them a little before realising it was useless to contend with God. There were key lessons for me to learn and I could learn them now or keep coming back to the same place to learn the same lessons. So I made the choice I needed to make and yes, I do trust Him.

  • If He asked you to leave your job with no knowledge of another source income, would you?
  • If He asked you to come away and be separate with no human contact for a period, would you?
  • If He asked you to give away all your possessions and follow Him, would you?
  • If He asked you not to speak to someone for an extended period would you?
  • If He asked you to be single and celibate for the rest of your days would you?
  • If He asked you to get married to someone you have just met after telling you He is your partner for life, would you?
  • If He asked you to leave a thriving business and go into employment, would you?
  • If He asked you to leave the land of your birth and go to another land without contacts or work, would you?
  • If He asked you leave a good job and trust his provision, would you?

This God we serve is a wise God. He’s all about proving Himself and providing for His children but He doesn’t tell us the full story because He knows we might bolt. He knows we are likely to balk and not leave so He gives us just as much information as we need. Have you ever wondered what it was like for Job to lose everything he had in one sitting except this wife? He lost 7000 sheep, 300 camels, 500 yoke oxen, 500 female donkeys and 10 children. Yet he never cursed God. He asked questions but by the time he was through he had a deeper faith in God and that was all God wanted from him.

2013-04-20 12.35.03So back to me; I have always wanted to know the full road map so that I can navigate the path faster and smoothly. I guess you can tell that hasn’t been my process. Has He given me wisdom? Absolutely! Has it been at the pace I want? Absolutely not! Did I get worked up? Definitely, especially in the beginning! Is there another way out? I recently discovered that there is.

In the last few weeks, I have come to understand that I must make a demand of the God that is in line with His desires for me. The only way I can do that is if I spend time with Him. Spending time with Him daily gives me the wisdom I need for the day and that is what I can live out with total confidence that it is well. That is I must seek God for the next step, then the next step, then the next step.

Walking with Him, one step at a time.

So this is what I have decided to do from now on…just ask for the next step. The full prophetic revelation is really cool but the daily instruction grounds me in His word and purpose. I choose daily instruction! What about you?

Time For The Important

We make time for what is important.”
A friend said to another one day,

‘Show me how you spend your time and I’ll tell you what is important to you.’

Yes, the things we spend our time on show who we are, what we place value on and where we want to be in life. It is so simple. This realisation has made me think long and hard. Take a moment and just think about your life and let me know what you find.

Look around you, do you have people around, lots of work and many good things going on but still haven’t reached the place you desire to? Are you unhappy with how things are going and crave a certain place with certain kinds of relationships that give you value yet nothing is coming forth? Is your heart at rest? Have you become all you know you are meant to be?

  • It really comes down to the things we are spending time on and that raises many questions.
  • What is important?
  • Who is important?
  • Which things would change our current path?
  • What one thing could you change that would blow your life onto the right orbit?
  • Where would you start and where would you end?
  • Have you given the right things prominence?
  • Are you focused on the things that are important to you?

Take the time to really ponder and the answers in your heart may just shock you.

For a long time I was bound by the way things should be and the expectation that people would notice what I was doing and pat me on the back for it. I wanted to be noticed. I was spending all my time on the things that culture and religion defined as important and little to no time listening to the voice of God. I hoped for things, did all sorts of good things, decreed and declared, praised my way through but I was still stuck, lost, things didn’t change. I plateaued over and over till I was absolutely furious with myself and life.

Yes, don’t be surprised…I was mad like a bee that has been swatted or a wasp that was hungry. Why was I mad? Don’t you get it? I wanted more and life was giving me nothing. Nada! It didn’t matter how long I worked, things started somewhere and then plateaued. It was as if I was cursed. LOL! That is honestly how I felt. I felt earthbound because I was meant to be an eagle but here I was pecking in the dirt like an emu.

Then I learned that I must listen to God; really listen with all of me until I could clearly hear Him for myself and allow His word to wash over me and become the very fabric of who I am. I also had to allow Him, not society or culture, only HIM to define who I am according to how He created me to be, what or who is important, how to engage with each person, what each needs from me, what I need from each, how much to give or receive from each and then act on it in my secret place.

Yes, work on it in the secret place where no one sees therefore no one can applaud. 
I sat down and held my head! What? Really? Ok! I had never known just how important applause was for me until this day and it terrified me.

I had to understand that the things I do, the people I look out for and the life I live is so ONLY because God has said it, I have accepted it and no one is watching. Yes, no one is watching and it doesn’t matter. Suddenly I was free to live without regret or frustration because I now had access to an infallible radar and rudder. I begun to seek His path and desire that everything I did or didn’t do was a direct response to His instruction and whether others responded or not I was good.

I realised that if I did things for recognition I would fail miserably and never achieve everything God sent me here to do. Additionally, the day I did something for anyone and told about it for recognition or wondered what others thought about me, I would have done that for me and not for Him yet my life must be all about Him ONLY. I chose to remain true to Him only.

The most important thing to me now is what God has said and how He has said it should be brought to life and affect the world. He decides how He packages it and I become the showcase of it. It is about following instructions in absolute trust and obedience no matter how strange or daunting it may be. The beginning or change has been interesting but as we persist together His nature is increasing as mine is decreasing and we are walking down the road.

It is about the will of Jehovah. In time I have come to understand that as trust grows on both ends so does the grace to be all He has set me out to be. As I trust Him more He gives me more; As He trusts me more, I grow more…it is a never ending cycle.

May our hearts be Truly tuned to God on how to love and engage with the world around us in ways that will honour Him always!



Thinking it through

I can’t believe that it is six years since this journey begun. It is really a joy for me to write every week and share the lessons I am learning that we may grow in the faith together.

It gives me real joy to know that there are people reading and growing from this work. Thank you to all those who have asked questions and commented on the page too; I really appreciate you for your support through the years.

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Where Is Your God? 

One key reason some people ask us where our GOD is must be because our lives don’t display him. I mean, what else could it be? Would you ask where the sun is if you can see it? would you ask where the car key is if you can find it? Would you call the name of someone who is in front of you? of course not! We only look for things that are impossible to find.

If this is the question the world is asking, what are we doing or not doing and surely we can do better. Surely He is alive in us…right? What does it mean to magnify you Lord with my life? What does true surrender look like? How do I showcase you in unshakable ways even in the market place and my home and in the community? What needs to change? How then do I need to live? What do I need to focus on? Who do I need to become?

This has been the cry of my heart for a while. I have wondered if I live right and if God is totally glorified in me. Do I showcase Him and  His love as I really should? Am I living proof that He is in me? Am I totally yielded and given up that nothing else matters? The biggest question for me has been, how do live my life in such a way that I know that I am all poured out and He’s the one alive in me?

Recently and seemingly out of the blue my sister shared something really profound with me. This is what she shared:

When I cease to be, HE becomes through me

When my life becomes His platform to become His will on earth, He gives me access to Higher ground in Him

Higher ground where all else ceases to have meaning and value except in Him; on His ground, on His terms. 


I wondered for a long time, and I still come back to think about these statements. In reality, several things stand out

  1. I must cease to be: this means I must give up the desire to control the situation
  2. My life becomes HIS platform: I become HIS stage to tell HIS story and showcase the lesson or lessons
  3. HE gives me ACCESS to Higher ground: He opens a deeper place of fellowship and then the next assignment with revelation, connections, understanding, clarity
  4. It is ALL on His terms: this relationship is not a democracy yet by yielding to His word and work in me, I am fully cared for by divine design.

It would seem simpler to try and figure things out in my strength and get ahead but that act would be futile because I will go in the wrong direction. Oh, you can count on that. The only way to walk in His ways and reach His assigned destination is to lean into Him. If the rest of the Godhead does nothing without instruction, who am I to walk around on my own terms? Far be it that I take the road that seems right just because it seems right. If I take the road I want…it definitely leads to death…death of my soul.

I choose this day to walk ONLY as He instructs for I have come to understand that nothing else matters or will bear TRUE fruit. Indeed I choose death, yes death of self that I may be raised in Him into a living and glorious reality of daily, moment by moment walking with He who loves me more than I could ever love myself.

Faith Triumphs in Trouble

Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have[a] peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Rom 5:1-5

I especially like the phrase, “Now hope does not disappoint because the Love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.”

The seasons of life are often challenging and I have found that there are instances where no amount of advance planning would have prepared us for the challenge at hand other than a true and unshakable belief and hope in God. My sister explained it to me as such:

Now I know how Daddy does it. How he manages despite all the madness, how he doesn’t lose it. It’s only God Who can get you through any of this. I realize from cleaving to Him with the desperation of a dying man that’s how Dad makes it. Just God. God alone. God only. And that’s all. Dad loves Him to a T and has chosen to cleave. And God gets him through it.

His life is premised on Hope based on the WORD he received at the point of meeting God and through the many years of interaction. Hope that has been honed in the fire of the process. Hope that is not and will never be based on the physical and visible things rather it is based on Christ Himself. The one unshakable God.

He is unshakable when it comes to things God has said to the point of walking away from his children till we learn and grow to where we need to be. One thing I have learnt from his example, it to be steadfast in God and stand on His word because this in the face of trouble and challenge is how faith triumphs…standing on THE WORD.

Since faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God, the only way my faith can stand is when I hear and align and then it is tested. No longer can I say God said something and still be caught up with doubt and fear. One does not suffer pain in God for nothing. One suffers it for righteousness. For growth. If the pain we suffer can produce only God in us; we are dearly blessed.

This makes me think of Joseph. He was seventeen when he had his first dream and was thirty when he ascended the throne. He spent decades serving as a slave and later in the dungeon as a prisoner because there was something God would have him learn. There are several things I see in all this:

  • There’s always an end game: a purpose, lesson, result bigger than us and anything we could grasp.
  • There’s a plan in play: even when it seems so stupid God is totally aware and at work in and through us.
  • There’s a lesson: this is always a classroom so that we can learn new things and move on up.
  • His glory is at stake: God never does anything just to do something. His goodness and power must be made manifest in and through us.

Therefore faith triumphs in trouble because it produces God in us in unbelievable ways.