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Where Is Your God? 

One key reason some people ask us where our GOD is must be because our lives don’t display him. I mean, what else could it be? Would you ask where the sun is if you can see it? would you ask where the car key is if you can find it? Would you call the name of someone who is in front of you? of course not! We only look for things that are impossible to find.

If this is the question the world is asking, what are we doing or not doing and surely we can do better. Surely He is alive in us…right? What does it mean to magnify you Lord with my life? What does true surrender look like? How do I showcase you in unshakable ways even in the market place and my home and in the community? What needs to change? How then do I need to live? What do I need to focus on? Who do I need to become?

This has been the cry of my heart for a while. I have wondered if I live right and if God is totally glorified in me. Do I showcase Him and  His love as I really should? Am I living proof that He is in me? Am I totally yielded and given up that nothing else matters? The biggest question for me has been, how do live my life in such a way that I know that I am all poured out and He’s the one alive in me?

Recently and seemingly out of the blue my sister shared something really profound with me. This is what she shared:

When I cease to be, HE becomes through me

When my life becomes His platform to become His will on earth, He gives me access to Higher ground in Him

Higher ground where all else ceases to have meaning and value except in Him; on His ground, on His terms. 


I wondered for a long time, and I still come back to think about these statements. In reality, several things stand out

  1. I must cease to be: this means I must give up the desire to control the situation
  2. My life becomes HIS platform: I become HIS stage to tell HIS story and showcase the lesson or lessons
  3. HE gives me ACCESS to Higher ground: He opens a deeper place of fellowship and then the next assignment with revelation, connections, understanding, clarity
  4. It is ALL on His terms: this relationship is not a democracy yet by yielding to His word and work in me, I am fully cared for by divine design.

It would seem simpler to try and figure things out in my strength and get ahead but that act would be futile because I will go in the wrong direction. Oh, you can count on that. The only way to walk in His ways and reach His assigned destination is to lean into Him. If the rest of the Godhead does nothing without instruction, who am I to walk around on my own terms? Far be it that I take the road that seems right just because it seems right. If I take the road I want…it definitely leads to death…death of my soul.

I choose this day to walk ONLY as He instructs for I have come to understand that nothing else matters or will bear TRUE fruit. Indeed I choose death, yes death of self that I may be raised in Him into a living and glorious reality of daily, moment by moment walking with He who loves me more than I could ever love myself.

Faith Triumphs in Trouble

Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have[a] peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Rom 5:1-5

I especially like the phrase, “Now hope does not disappoint because the Love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.”

The seasons of life are often challenging and I have found that there are instances where no amount of advance planning would have prepared us for the challenge at hand other than a true and unshakable belief and hope in God. My sister explained it to me as such:

Now I know how Daddy does it. How he manages despite all the madness, how he doesn’t lose it. It’s only God Who can get you through any of this. I realize from cleaving to Him with the desperation of a dying man that’s how Dad makes it. Just God. God alone. God only. And that’s all. Dad loves Him to a T and has chosen to cleave. And God gets him through it.

His life is premised on Hope based on the WORD he received at the point of meeting God and through the many years of interaction. Hope that has been honed in the fire of the process. Hope that is not and will never be based on the physical and visible things rather it is based on Christ Himself. The one unshakable God.

He is unshakable when it comes to things God has said to the point of walking away from his children till we learn and grow to where we need to be. One thing I have learnt from his example, it to be steadfast in God and stand on His word because this in the face of trouble and challenge is how faith triumphs…standing on THE WORD.

Since faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God, the only way my faith can stand is when I hear and align and then it is tested. No longer can I say God said something and still be caught up with doubt and fear. One does not suffer pain in God for nothing. One suffers it for righteousness. For growth. If the pain we suffer can produce only God in us; we are dearly blessed.

This makes me think of Joseph. He was seventeen when he had his first dream and was thirty when he ascended the throne. He spent decades serving as a slave and later in the dungeon as a prisoner because there was something God would have him learn. There are several things I see in all this:

  • There’s always an end game: a purpose, lesson, result bigger than us and anything we could grasp.
  • There’s a plan in play: even when it seems so stupid God is totally aware and at work in and through us.
  • There’s a lesson: this is always a classroom so that we can learn new things and move on up.
  • His glory is at stake: God never does anything just to do something. His goodness and power must be made manifest in and through us.

Therefore faith triumphs in trouble because it produces God in us in unbelievable ways.

Living It Out

For a while now, there have been many ideas turning around in my head. Mostly ideas related to my writing and key steps I need to take to get on with the life I was created to live. I have been so held back it was scary and amazing to realise just how much I have allowed not to happen because of fear. On the outside, I seemed to be moving and growing but my reality on the inside was that I was stalling and bound in place by fear.

This year…the Year of Our Lord 2017 has changed many things for me. It is the year of manifestation and a great giant door that opened and my mind has connected to the reality that I was hiding behind fear. Fear?

Fear? Yes. fear! Fear is that thing that makes you doubt the WORD of God over you and keeps you marching on the spot for a long time or like the children of Israel, walking around a mountain for 40 years. I had looked around and wondered why I seemed so stuck, lost and stagnant. All the messages I had heard and all the truth I knew about God and me; why was I still unable to move a single step. Different things around me were acting like weights to my feet so I couldn’t walk. If I walked, it was painstakingly slow because of the weight I carried in my mind, body and soul.

So what has happened in 2017?

I realised that all I need is God and the ones He has sent to me to walk with me.

This has made me do a few radical things:

  1. Decide to hear God for myself: No longer would I seek counsel from another before seeking the same counsel from God Himself. Since He has a clear path that He would unfold to me as I seek him and spend time with him, I would take advantage of that. This means spending time with Him however as it is the route to success. The choice to follow Him and only His has saved my sanity.
  2. Walk with family: Not everyone around me is in this for the long haul, but everyone has a role. It has become increasingly important to know each person’s role and relate to them accordingly. Family is for the long haul and is on a similar path but will not allow me to short change myself so I chose to engage deeper with them. These are people destined to walk with me and challenge me at every turn so that I can progress and explore possibilities and make life really count. They are honest even when it hurts and burns, are warm and loving. when you need a hug  and they know when and how to provide the needed element. Just to be clear, family isn’t all about biology…it is about appointed people to walk together.
  3. Choose to trust God regardless: This has been the most challenging to start but the most fulfilling to live out in time. Since God is not a man that He should lie or the son of man that He would change His mind, His word is reliable. This means that once HE says it that is not…nothing will change it. The only impediments that can stop His word lie within me. I chose to believe His word even when there is no evidence of anything at work and it is paying off big time.

It came to me that no matter how insignificant I feel and how hard it can be to get up every day, there is good waiting to come out of my life so I must get up and do that which He has said to do for that day. I used to wish that my life was different but I have come to understand that my path is unique and God will not allow me to walk a path that won’t bring Him glory and draw me closer to Himself. HE is God alone and the one who makes things work and work well.

So I choose to love and trust Him no matter what! That is how I will live my life from now henceforth.




Photo courtesy of @Judy Niemeyer

Psalm 139
Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)

(1) Adonai, you have probed me, and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I stand up, you discern my inclinations from afar,
3 you scrutinize my daily activities. You are so familiar with all my ways
4 that before I speak even a word, Adonai, you know all about it already.
5 You have hemmed me in both behind and in front and laid your hand on me.
6 Such wonderful knowledge is beyond me, far too high for me to reach.
7 Where can I go to escape your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I climb up to heaven, you are there; if I lie down in Sh’ol, you are there.
9 If I fly away with the wings of the dawn and land beyond the sea,
10 even there your hand would lead me, your right hand would hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Let darkness surround me, let the light around me be night,”
12 even darkness like this is not too dark for you; rather, night is as clear as day, darkness and light are the same.
13 For you fashioned my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I thank you because I am awesomely made, wonderfully; your works are wonders —
I know this very well.
15 My bones were not hidden from you when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes could see me as an embryo, but in your book all my days were already written;
my days had been shaped before any of them existed.
17 God, how I prize your thoughts! How many of them there are!
18 If I count them, there are more than grains of sand; if I finish the count, I am still with you.

Failing Forward

“…can my seeming “failure” be a stage for God to show up and show off? In failures? Really? No…really?! Maybe…if I’m open to letting God have His full way, then maybe…..”

When my brother asked the above question, my heart leapt in my chest because I suddenly understood my season better. I have had many days when what I have always known and done isn’t working anymore. The things I have always done with ease are coming across like I am a novice. The harder I try the greater the challenge and more pronounced the failure.

It took me back to my high school days when I dropped from the top of my class to very nearly the bottom. I remember days when I read and read and read for exams but still had an E grade in one subject or another. I sat up, I studied, I joined group discussions and only did worse. My math teacher was one of the hardest most demanding teachers but she consistently looked for grades to give me and still it was a fail.

I got so tired of reading and failing that I just stopped. Instead, I focused on the things God put into my heart to focus on and saw resounding success. It took everything in me to give up power over the failing ones but it also took all He had to wait for my voluntary alignment in these areas. At that moment I was totally lost about the areas that weren’t working as I expected even as I had learnt to let go. I even made a deal with Him, that I would go straight into university and not have to do the bridging programs and all.

It was the hardest season in my life because I had to stand on His promises even when everything around me said something else. Every exam we did seemed to cast in stone that I wasn’t going to do well and I was left to stand on a seeming foolish belief that I would do well. So I did the things I knew to do and kept the prayer for success and good grades alive in my heart.

It didn’t help that my struggles were somehow announced to the a part of the world and there were people who knew how I was struggling yet I was in a place of leadership. Yet what I didn’t know at the time was that those who knew joined on bended knee to pray for me. It roused people to stand with me without telling me. I always wondered where the peace that I had, came from but as I look back, it came from all those who lent their voices to my situation.

These are the things that get me thinking about failing forward.

Would I be okay to do my best and still ‘fail’ if I knew that it would honour God and bring someone else closer to Him?

Would I be fine to fail if I knew that it would order my path and help me reach my full ordination faster?

These are bit questions to ask myself and answer honestly. I have learnt that my life is so little about me and so much about the other people I will touch. It is about the lives that will change because I am fully yielded to the plans of God. It is about reaching the mark and prize that have been set forth for me.

Am I willing to fail forward to accomplish divine purpose?

You Are Here

You are here and You said you will never leave,

We need you lord, we need you lord,
We need you Lord x4
You are true, and Your promises remain

We trust you lord, we trust you lord

We trust you Lord x4
You are king and You reign forever more

Reign in my life, reign in my life

Reign in my life x4

We love you Lord (repeat)

Dr. Tumi – You are here


Jehovah God is with me always, has always been and will always be. I am just beginning to really grasp what this means? In the past my response was a normal one because knowing God was normal then questions begun to rise in my heart.

Do I actively connect, worship, listen, accept and respond or do I just enjoy the warmth of His embrace and walk away? Do I understand that there is as reason for this connection? Do I understand why He has chosen to work so deeply in me? Am I living out the fullness of my calling? Am I aware of His desired end game in my life? Do I really understand who I must connect with an pass on His love to? What do I need to showcase about Him and His plan for me? How can I say that I love and serve God but my life is bland and doesn’t reflect the very nature of my Father? Does my life reflect the deep sweet and intense flavour of God?

He is all loving and wise; He is a consuming fire, a righteous judge, a compassionate father, a rod, a staff. He keeps his word and promises. He is unchanged and unchanging. He turns to me and says I am here; I am ready to change your life. Take my hand and let’s walk together. He shows His love for me through nature, through people, circumstances, everything around me. He defines my view of the world, my conversations, He guides my choices and draws me in so that I am sure of my walk. He walks with me and though He doesn’t simplify the path, He teaches me that it is all about His plan and the process that will bring me into the fullness of His plan.

Nothing can ever change the fact that I am His and He is with me even when in the eyes of men my life is falling apart. Everything he allows me to walk through is for His honour and glory and my good. Nothing is in vain and I cannot fail as long as I am walking as he has instructed. The end game is to raise me to the perfect version of me He saw before He knit me together in my mother’s womb. The me that would be free of culture and religious practise but deeply steeped in His love and truth, led by His word and living out His will. Oh that I would become all that and then some. Oh that I would rise to the peak of His plan for me.

So Lord, reign in my life, take charge and control, raise me up to all you knew I would be, bring me into the fullness of who you saw before the foundations of the world. Draw me closer and reveal yourself to me, in me, with me and through me. Let it be known first in my heart and then through my life that You are indeed a true God.

Truly Living

It has been on my heart for a long time to do a devotional that captures my walk and the things I have learnt along the way. However every time I sat down to write it there were so many things competing for attention that I didn’t get around to it.

2017 the year of manifestation started with a clear knowledge that the time indeed has come to bring forth all those things that God has laid in my heart previously.

Truly Living simply shares lessons learnt as I learn to walk in total trust and fidelity to God and allow Him to undo everything I knew that was law and breathe His life into my life. Simple lessons that have and continue to change the way I live, love, share and care. Simple truths that have totally changed my view and the desires of my heart.

A deep work in my heart pour out for all.

This devotional is the proof of a new move of God in me.

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