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Love Me; Love You


The last couple of days have been challenging with a combination of flu and lots of work. Several days I didn’t even have an appetite but ate because of medication and the need to keep going. I even resorted to adding sips of energy drinks to my life for the energy boost I needed. What struck me the most is that all I needed was a sip here and a sip there to get through; a 250ml bottle takes me more than 24 hours. Crazy right? But that isn’t the story here.

I have an additional coach who is just as committed as my other one. I have wondered why God would allow two people to come in and just offer to push me as if one isn’t enough. Anyway…I digress. She is super fit by all standards and has nothing to lose or so I thought yet is an encouragement to me of overcoming adversity and physical challenges. A few years ago she tore a tendon totally and was told she would never get back on the fitness path again. Many of us would take that as permission to give up and lie down, yet not her. It has been a long journey but she is fitter and more active today than before the injury and is back to wearing her heels. I am encouraged to own the space I find myself in.

Last weekend I spent time with a wonderful group of high school students discussing media and its impact. In the middle of sharing it hit me between the eyes that my issues with my body began a long time ago because the booksI was reading presented a certain type of woman as the perfect image. Well, it didn’t say outright that this is the perfect woman but there was a reference to certain measurements. dimensions and shapes that were appreciated and I was those dimensions in class six so you can image that shortly after as I continued to grow I passed the beautiful size and so begun the silent journey and internal battle of I am not good enough.

No one external told me I was big in fact, I remember the boys around me staring until I begun wearing long skirts to cover up and avoid the attention. As I grew older I would attract attention and it would make me feel uncomfortable and that I need to change things about my body so they stop staring. It is only recently that I have realised that they aren’t staring (yes they still do) because I was garishly fat, it was because there was and still is beauty to observe, cleverly placed there by God.

I had judged the situation and taken a position about myself, stamped and sealed it as final and then moved forward with a false perspective. On the outside I was cool and confident but on the inside I was always working on getting and staying a certain kind of small so I could be and remain beautiful. As I have undergone the last ninety seven days of fitness, one of the exercises has been to look at myself. I have looked at myself in the mirror…really looked and begun to see the beautiful girl God created, somewhat shy at times, with a big smile and beautiful curves. I haven’t lost loads of weight…just 2.4kg and several inches yet I love me as I am. I see me as different; I believe God’s word over me.

You see, I have finally understood, just under thirty years later, that I am beautiful because God has said so. Period!!! No other reason needed.

pexels-photo-247670.jpegHe couldn’t be out of his mind when he ‘…formed my inward parts; HE covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise Him, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are His works, And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from Him, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. His eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in His book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.’ Ps 139:13-16 NKJV (Paraphrase is mine)

Love who He created you to be…Embrace His plan for you.

The Thorn


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Dear Lord,

You have been and continue to be the strength of my life and I don’t know how else to live. I have sought you and you have answered. In all honesty, the answers haven’t been the ones I have expected but in hindsight, they have been the best answers I ever received. Hindsight is 20:20.

Sitting at the feet of one of your sons I learnt something new…

“The Obstacles I meet are not designed for me to fight.” When I heard that I was stumped because I was raised to fight against things that stand in the way of my good. In that lesson, it struck me that I can only fight what God tells me to fight and often the things I must fight against are the things that are blocking my inheritance.
It was striking that You Lord have allowed the thorn in my flesh for a reason…yes there is a reason. You have allowed that thorn so that it can produce more of You in me. Very often, the thorn I’m fighting is needed for my inheritance and my coming out. I have the choice to settle for removal of the thorn and have physical satisfaction but lose the inheritance OR leave the thorn be and work with God for His plan. That way, the thorn produces the right fruit and once the right fruit is produced You bring relief.

The last few days, weeks and months have been really hard in regular perspectives but I have learnt to trust You are the best leader in the walk called life. The thing I was left saying was I want to get to the place of hope as described in Hebrews 6:17-20…

Thus God, determining to show more abundantly to the heirs of promise the immutability of His counsel, confirmed it by an oath, that by two immutable things, in which it is impossible for God to lie, we might have strong consolation, who have fled for refuge to lay hold of the hope set before us. This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil.

This hope remains steady even when the thorn in my flesh is so painful, bothersome and doesn’t seem likely to be removed. When You said the thorn MUST produce more of You and only You can remove it, I begun to understand that to have the matters I want immediate resolution for settled ahead of Your time is to stall my process and hence stop me from producing fully mature fruit to Your glory. I also realized that the process is still on-going because the very thing that caused me such extreme pain only 6 days ago is now so clearly trigger to fully indicate where I am in my journey and allow me to course correct daily.

Now I begin to truly understand that nothing is by chance and any situation when seen through Your perspective can and does produce more of You daily. I stand amazed at Your love for me and Your determination that I produce ONLY YOU. The reality that You won’t judge my walk by how much property I have rather by how closely I walk with You, hit me right between the eyes. Even as I still have learning and growing ahead I press on knowing afresh that You are at work in me. You provide for my needs according to Your riches in glory, You never let me down, You open and close doors as would help me bring you out…You are God alone and I choose once again to seek You above all else and find the peace that is set in You.

It is done in Your Name.

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Isaiah 9:6-7

6 For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

7 Of the increase of His government and peace there will be no end, Upon the throne of David and over His kingdom, To order it and establish it with judgment and justice from that time forward, even forever. The zeal of the Lord of hosts will perform this.

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What are you #Thankful for this year?
What struggles, challenges and hard times have you overcome?
What do we have to celebrate?

There is good and something to be thankful about in everything that happens around us.
Join me and celebrate the goodness, beauty and success of life.

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