I’m looking back to a day like today last year, December 26th 2018, the day I began the journey to wellness. It is a day of deep reflection. So many things have changed since that day.
The most obvious thing that has changed is my state of mind.
I’ve found that as soon as I am fully committed to something that’s all I need. I have learnt that I am the decision maker in my life and must live life as such. I have always known that I make the choices but for so long it was easier to blame life, people and the things going on around me for the state of my life. The journey wasn’t without struggle but it was also covered with learning that shook and grounded me simultaneously.
A couple of years before, a friend said that I needed to stop playing the victim and begin taking charge of my life. Harsh statement but as I thought about it, I saw how right he was. There were areas in my life I was unable to handle because I didn’t know how to and I didn’t want to appear needy or incompetent. I was hiding struggle and fear behind false confidence, indifference and anger yet this was stunting my growth. I wasn’t whole or rational but from the outside, I was cool as a cucumber.
I had to make a significant change in my life. I had to find a new path. I had to improve and this was one option.
As I begun the journey, I had set my targets and sent them to coach in the middle of the night so I had time to process but he’s an early riser so he saw them early the next morning. Hiding had come to an abrupt end at my request and I held the key to continue or stop. This was my chosen path and I had to keep moving so I decided that no matter what I would make it plain to those around me and ask them to hold me to account for the process. It worked.
Looking back over the last twelve months has been really astounding. I see profound changes; I have become a totally different person. I am stronger, slimmer, happier, and calmer. The aspect of calmer is what grabs my attention today and it raises two questions namely, why have I become calmer? How do I remain calmer?
I am calmer because:
- My life is now based on the word of God and He has proven himself true and able repeatedly
- I know I can set my mind to a task and complete it even with extreme opposition
- I have determined in my heart and mind what needs to be done
- My life is now based on the word of God and he has proven himself true and able repeatedly
- Nothing shakes my resolve
I will remain calm by:
- Keeping my mind on the word of God
- Remaining accountable to my travel partners and other accountability mechanisms
- Remembering that this journey is not about me so I must help others find and walk in their determined paths
This journey is never about me and will never be and the sooner I learn this and live by it life becomes and remains better.